I wrote at When Friends Tune In With Their Spidey Sense that I enjoy it and take note when friends and I tune into each other and don’t realize it until later. I’ve been writing to a friend with no computer, and on Sunday January 22nd they wrote they’d had a dream I ran away with a deer hunter from Canada named Boyd and they saw me sitting in Boyd’s bed all day. I got their letter today so they by now have my letter telling that I’d spent Sunday Jan 22nd afternoon next to a friend’s hospital bed in the ER, name not Boyd but similar. Oooo eeeee ooooo
Yearly Archives: 2012
Help friends newly in recovery and on probation
Friends newly in recovery: Love em, encourage em, expect the best, but don’t believe the fibs or the cons. Know it’s part of the process. Keep yourself sane even when they aren’t. Don’t pretend to be a therapist if you’re not. This is serious stuff. And if you have a friend who gets drug tested for probation, your second hand smoke can register them an amount high enough to get them violated — friends don’t drink or drug around pals in recovery, ok? It’s not just good social etiquette, it can keep them from going to jail for violation of probation which adds a brand new felony to their record.
A sweet thing a lover said to me
“I figured you were probably not a vampire and I didn’t want to be one if you weren’t.”
A nice festival of sleep this weekend
Ok, so my only job this weekend was to get my bookkeeping and billing done, neither of which happened. Instead I played in my yard, moved furniture around and put the February Horizons Magazine online. I also had a weekend festival of sleep, culminating in my last sleep segment being from 5am-9am this morning. For me that is unusual, going to bed when it’s dark outside and then waking after sunrise to get into my day. When I have phone appointments at night, I usually start winding down to sleep – darkening the rooms and muting the sounds – about 3pm so I can be up by 9pm. If I don’t have calls, then I’m up at 4:00am for morning meditation and usually just go right into the office after that. It’s remarkable how much better I think and feel when I get real sleep. Real sleep as in not waking every 30 minutes to check the clock to see when 3-4 hours have passed so I can finally just get up and have it over with. I run myself ragged and don’t know I’ve done it. Nice to have a wake up call to it and a break from it. Continue reading
Sunday’s East Garden Clearing
I should be doing bookkeeping and billing today but instead I cleaned up the east garden a bit. It was looking shabby after the leaves were off the trees and you could see the cut bamboo stored there, all askew atop the broken fence panel and stored timber. I began by stacking all the fallen bamboo and the oak and pine deadfall. Then I kicked the layers of leaves off the lumber on the ground and stacked it up. Next I walked out to the street to assess the view and determine where the bare spots were. I took the pruners and began cutting a dozen large palm fronds and sticking them into the ground as along a fence line. I cut all the dead fronds, large and small, and stuck them in the ground as well. As they decay they will nourish the earth and until then, I have a bit of privacy from the daily passersby. I hand watered most of the trees and bushes. In the back of the property, my grumpy back neighbor cuts the branches of my big oak and leaves the huge branch debris in my yard, atop the turk’s cap hedge I’ve been trying to grow for about 3 years. If that makes him happy, so be it. It gives more light to the turk’s cap, as I see it. So today I dragged all the big cut down branches over to my east property line near where he cut it, and stacked it neatly. That cuts off any back route into the property so it was good to do anyway. All in all, grumpy neighbor did me several favors. The last thing I did before coming inside was use duct tape to get all the splinters from the palmetto fronds out of my hands. And my billing? Well, tomorrow is another day.
I got sleep!
I wrote a few days ago I Get Relief From My Acute Anxiety and then yesterday I slept for 5 hours in a row and it was a restful, refreshing and dreaming sleep. I love it when I can sleep and wake up feeling, well, like I slept. I can actually think clearly and not feel overwhelmed by all the work I think I have to do. I keep forgetting I’m the boss of me, I have to remind my mind of that sometimes.
Solar Flares Causing Our Anxiety? Or Just Life?
I”m fairly mellow, so anxiety is something I only infrequently experience. Friends say it’s related to the solar flares we’re having right now. Call it what you will, but I figure, like that great sage Roseanne Roseannadana, said, “It’s always something.” After a few days of personal anxiety (I wrote about it here I get relief from my acute anxiety and here Another Mother of a Shakti Crash,) I wrote yesterday on Facebook: “Sigh, it’s only 9:00am on Wednesday, can all my bipolar pals please stop bonking out all at once, I am of no use to you today, trust me.” Continue reading
I get relief from my acute anxiety
I wrote this week that after having some acute anxiety, I for the first time in years made a medical appointment. I wrote at the end of How Timely: Another Mother of a Shakti Crash that I attribute the anxiety of the shakti crash I am experiencing now to a few incidents last week where I was concerned with dear friends in health crises. I clearly let my mind run away with worry. My wake up call was Sunday when a close friend began having classic heart attack symptoms and we called 911. The paramedics arrived just in time they said and he was transported to the emergency room. I followed and hung with him while they did all the poking and prodding and gave him a ride home many hours later. Except for the almost dying part, it was fun once he was stabilized. When he mentioned on Facebook that I’d hung with him in the emergency room, I posted, “I couldn’t resist hanging with a handsome dude all tied down to a bed is all 🙂 I tried tickling his ear to make the numbers on the monitor thingy go up but it didn’t work…Glad you’re still around to torment some more.” Continue reading
How Timely: A Mother of a Shakti Crash
I’m having a shakti crash after an eventful week. In this context, I define shakti as the life force energy as I experience it within my physical body. When I say a shakti crash, I refer to what I experience as a result of an overload of sensory input. Much of my personal time is spent alone in silence and I am someone who likes a lot of empty space, a lot of room between my molecules. I speak with dozens of people every day and can feel easily overloaded with voicing and listening. I like a lot of thought time after an experience in order to fully grok it. I like a lot of still time in between physical exertion times. I like slow, easy, quiet time spent with friends appreciating The Now. When I don’t get the quiet downtime, like when I choose to instead hang with fun friends doing adventurous things for extended periods of time, afterwards I get what I call a shakti crash.
Which daily supplements I take
I’ve made an appointment with a health professional and I made up a list of all the vitamins and supplements I take so they have it in my file. I’m narcissistic enough to think you might want to see it too 🙂
…. ABOUT ME: I eat a mostly unprocessed diet with the occasional can of soup, pasta, crackers or bread a couple of times a month. Otherwise it’s chicken, fish, some cheese, some tofu, veggies. Potatoes are my main starch. I keep my fat grams about 40-60 grams a day, no butter, I use Earth Balance.
I eat no red meat, no pork since 2005.
I had my gall bladder out in 2004 after 2 bouts with gallstone pancreatitis.
I got another pancreatitis attack a year later and learned to change my diet, lower my fats, start cooking healthy and stop eating lumberjack quantities of fried meats and bread. My website at www.goddessgrub.com is all about my healthy eating journey. These are the supplements I take each day for past year or so: Continue reading