Now that I am down to one kitty and it’s just Yinnie and I, yesterday I thought about her eating habits.  She likes the dry food, which I know is not best for her. She eats very little canned food, maybe 1/2 can a day.  I don’t know how much natural diet she eats since when I see her outside, she is lounging in the sun and rarely hunting.  I thought, as little as she eats (altho she’s plump – must be the kibble) I will just cook her food when I cook my own.  We began last night with some rotisserie chicken breast with cooked spinach.  She looked amused and ate some kibble and split out the cat door.  Ok, cans and kibble it is.

Interesting how the Universe arranges it so that someone we’ve known for years can suddenly appear before us in an entirely new way, giving glimpses of depths and dimensions never before noticed. It’s all in perfect timing, that “not connecting before now” part.  The chalice had to be in place to receive the elixir.  It’s nice when both can recognize that. A friend commented on Facebook, “Make sure no fool’s gold this time.”  I responded, “It’s never fool’s gold, it’s ALL valuable. There is magic to letting yourself live in the dream for as long as you can.”

I like working in the dark.  When I’m doing my writing or session work, the low light allows me to stay inwardly focused.  I have red bulbs I use for nighttime keyboard work without impairing my night vision.  I have two huge windows but keep privacy curtains drawn to keep the room dim.  Then there are days like today, when I want to see every inch of everything on my desks.  I moved my one big standing halogen lamp out of the bedroom and into the office and now it’s like daylight in here!  So now there’s no excuse but to get the work done, now that I can see it, huh?

Izzy DaBig Giant Kitty

My big kitty Izzy passed away yesterday morning. I’m happy he’s free from discomfort and is on to his next evolutionary stage. The first thing I do when there’s a change in the household is to clean and rearrange everything, and do a smudging of the space.  As I opened the first can of food for my YinYang, I realized she prefers the dry (and the outside buffet) so she eats only about 1/3 can twice a day.  I wondered if she would miss Izzy, always hissing as he went by. Like me, she prefers to stay off by herself.  As humans, we imagine our pets have the same emotions and thoughts about

YinYang, my Minicow Yinnie

things as we do.  Silly, they adapt, they go with the flow. Last night, she followed me as I did my nightly walk around the hood.  Later, in the recliner, she jumped in my lap and let me pet her.  When I dozed and awoke 3 hours later, she was sleeping across my chest.  After an hour’s sitting meditation, I called her as I went into bed.  As I was drifting back off to sleep, I felt her jump up and snuggle onto the pillow around my head.  Kitties know.

 Domino still has issues with her father that bleed over into her relationships now with men (surprise!)  She asked me how she could do Forgiveness Work on him when he’s been dead for many years.  I told her it doesn’t matter if someone is alive or dead, where the issue lives is in our consciousness, and we are the ones who control our perceptions there.  My process is this. It’s pretty standard and very freeing.

1 — Place a chair across from you. In your mind’s eye, imagine sitting across from you anyone with whom you do not feel total alignment or support.

2 — Imagine an infinite source of Love and healing flowing into the top of your head (from your Higher Self or the Creator/God/whatever of your understanding), and let the source of love and healing flow down inside your body, fill up the body, and overflow out your heart to heal the person in the chair before you.

3 — Have a discussion with the person.  Tell them anything you want them to know.  Remember they did the best they could under the conditions at that time.  You don’t know what struggles they were going through.  Imagine them responding to you as you would like to be responded to and understood.

4 — Forgive them.  Tell them you’re sorry for your part in whatever happened, and ask them to forgive you.  Thank them for their part in your life.  Tell them you love them and mean it. “I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me, I forgive you, thank you.”

5 — Imagine standing up with the person before you.  With a hand swipe motion, cut the cords between you.  All past issues are now dissolved.  Imagine the person walking away as you feel love and forgiveness for them.

Related: Hawaiian Forgiveness Ho’oponopono Process 

Hard as it is, get used to death
Her perception upon dying
A Friend and I Talk About Dying and Easy Transitions
Remember “we” survive after death of the body
How to forgive and find closure if the other is unwilling, absent or dead  
Why pretend loved ones aren’t going to die? Let’s get over the fear

The End of Death As We Know It: What The Crossing Over Experience Was Like, As Reported By Those Who Made The Transition

Izzy DaBig Giant Kitty

My big kitty Izzy passed away this morning.  What a blessing, he’s now out of discomfort and on to better times. What a caterpillar calls death, we call a butterfly.  The friend I got him from said, “His mother passed away at 7 from a heart defect common to mainecoons. I’m glad you had almost double the time with him. He was a beautiful, gentle giant and will be missed.”  Aho, my big kitty, until we meet again.

Her Perception Upon Dying
As you watched my body lapse and fail,
I watched Creation unfold in all its Glory;

As my body contorted as though in pain,
all I felt was joyful bliss at glimpsing what lie beyond.

My final tears were not in frustration of incapacity,
they sprang forth in welcome relief and freedom

My lack of response concerned you so
yet I heard every word and felt every kiss

While my tongue was quiet, my mind’s eye was filled
with sights and sensations of such Loving immersion
that no words could begin to describe it; so I didn’t even try.

Rather, perhaps selfishly, I chose to slip my grateful shell of a body
and merge myself in the brilliant Light and Radiance
of that overwhelmingly loving and comforting Presence
that so benevolently graced my final days.

Copyright 1999 Andrea deMichaelis. A channelled message from the nonphysical perspective of one who recently made their transition. This came to me during a telephone reading in response to a daughter inquiring about a beloved parent who had recently passed.

RELATED:  The End of Death As We Know It

My beloved YinYand died June 2015

As you make your bed, so shall you lie in it.  Make sure no worries or past baggage come into bed with you each night.  I do a nightly review to clear away any concerns of the day, and do any forgiveness work, etc. at that time too. It’s like a cleansing, so I’m not marinating in toxic concerns all night.

Just when I began to think how fortunate I was to have lucked upon another brother on the path, I saw him as the chameleon.  He was distracted for a time, immersed himself obsessively, but the fruit is the evidence of the inner work being done.   His interests lie elsewhere. A brother on the Path is a sacred relationship to me.  I have been blessed with several in my time.  They act as teacher and student, as muse and artist, as we walk along side each other on the path to awakening and upliftment of consciousness.  This is not a romantic/sexual relationship.  I find this work is easier done with a man who lives a monastic lifestyle, or who has a partner of many years who understands the work we are doing together. One such brother passed several years ago.  I will by my dedication to my practice attract another if that is what is best meant for me, otherwise I shall happily travel my path alone.

Law of attraction allows us to constantly sculpt our ever-changing future landscape. The last couple of days I’ve been sitting out at my firepit each sundown and during the days reweaving the bamboo and palmetto frond walls lining my driveway.  I love doing physical outdoor work, especially when it has to do with resculpting my ever-changing landscape.  I typically keep several temporary, natural and living garden type fences in place by weaving the eleganus and grapevine into each other to form a frame.  Onto this frame, I can train the iveys and the vines.  While it is bare, if it’s in a place I’d like more privacy, I can weave freshly cut small palmetto fronds into it.  Nature has the fronds begin to decay as the vines begin to grow.  Perfect timing.  Each moving gracefully onto their next evolutionary stage.  Humans can learn a lot from watching Nature, a lot about graceful transitions, no need for tearings apart.  Continue reading →

Jeremy, I won’t share the email you just sent me.  The buck stops here. Remember that you agreed on Day One to be part of a publicly shared journey, honesty and transparency, you asked for it, specifically. “I am ready, I can handle it, this is soul work.” Remember that when you blame me for anything.  Updating a blog post when your wife emails me doesn’t mean I’ve not “let it go.” It means I’m updating a blog post. That I didn’t include her entire email shows I have boundaries.   You sing of stepping stones yet deny your own. My wanting you to get help overrides my caring if you ever talk to me again. And always the crazy lies, why? Like your mom losing her house next month – no she’s not. I understand so much now.   If you moved away, it would halt it once and for all. But the Universe hasn’t wanted that to happen yet, so here we are, literally in front of each other. I wish for you what I wish for me. I will continue to write about whatever I see happening right in front of me. I have nothing to hide.  I was you twenty years ago. I tried to be a brother on the path to you. When you’re ready for that, the soul knows no separation. Your goodbyes mean nothing, as your soul speaks to mine. When the personality stops being bruised and steps into the background, we will connect again, long from now.  I was the only one who came to your rescue when you cried out, deny me as you might in your anger for me outing your behavior (which you agreed to by the way). I pray understanding eases your pain.  Live what you’ve been taught these last 16 months and it will transform your life. For right now, you’re just playing at magic and  greater treasure lies beyond.  Bless you, truly.