Monthly Archives: October 2013

48 hours I think I got my wish (I did!)

abstract rainbow transparent designhappy danceI’ve had a cold for a few days and it’s finally shaking off. I’m feeling suddenly free and expanded and I don’t think it’s just the cold. This is the first I’ve had a chance to sit down and recall that I wrote at Saturday 4:00pm I’ll see what surprise blessing I have that I’m doing an experiment from  E-Squared: Nine Do-It-Yourself Energy Experiments That Prove Your Thoughts Create Your Reality by Pam Grout and within 48 hours, I expected to have a surprise blessing from the Universe.   A friend has been wanting a new home and I’ve been holding that vision for them.  My spidey sense tells me they found it. (Update, they did!) Happy dance for everyone! Continue reading

I take 100% responsibility for being unkind and unloving in the past by Michael CleanFoods Sage

It’s so liberating to reach that point in your life when you look back at behaviors of the past and have realizations about them that help you in the Now.  A friend recently wrote: “I love looking back at old relationships and to see my part in things. I really wanted my ex wife to breast feed, because I heard it was better for our babies. Back then I was a very lost soul and thought like many there was a right and wrong way. She was against it, she was completely distant from her own body. Sex was the worst I ever had, but I, in my mind thought that meant being more virginal, she would make a better mom, hard to believe my thoughts looking back. We had sex maybe 50 times over a 18 year relationship. She was taught that sex was something you have to do for your husband out of obligation. So I pressured her into trying to breast feed our son, which was just an awful thing to do now looking back. This is a woman who wanted to keep her shirt on during sex. I just had the story in my mind it was so important to breast feed, that I would have done it if I could.” Continue reading

Releasing old programming during this retrograde by going on a journey of discovery within my own memory

I told Facebook that I love riding around at night under the stars when it’s quiet.  A friend commented that he’s a crazy bike rider and has been hit numerous times. “Good grief,” I said, “I don’t ride anywhere but around the hood and I get off the road if a car comes.” That’s a habit I’ve had since childhood. If I am walking or bike riding somewhere alone and a car approaches, I get out of the street.  When I was a kid, my dad would tell me to get out of sight when a car approaches so they don’t take me, to duck behind a tree and stop moving so they don’t see me.  When I was 15, the daughter of someone he knew was kidnapped so I grew up being on alert for it.   With that belief system, I attracted my share of stalkers and such.  When I realized what was happening, I morphed my belief system to cut it out. When I know better, I do better.  I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting during this Mercury Retrograde in Scorpio, which takes place in my 7th house of relationship.  That means all my unresolved relationship issues are laid out before me saying, “peek at me? visit me? resolve me?”  Coming out of the Sun square Pluto earlier this month and several squares and oppositions with Uranus, I thought that meant I’d be arguing with my partner.  Happily that’s not the case. He’s a chill guy, so the astrological “challenge” appears instead as me having old emotional issues surface in my mind and me working through them as they come up. Continue reading

Just because it’s easy doesn’t mean you’re not growing in leaps and bounds

I had a headcold Thursday that had me sneezing all day and by Friday it had morphed into a cough as well.  Today I pulled out the Mucinex so I could breathe. When I am feeling overworked, my body pretends it’s having a cold. Whether I treat it or not, it lasts a few days.  “With breathing difficulties, your body is signaling that you want to take on too much and you will not admit any limitation, even to yourself. You want to seem strong. You want things to be done your way, and when that doesn’t happen, a cold is just the excuse you need to not be strong as you seem. The internal approach of ‘taking on too much’ is poisoning and suffocating you. Liberate yourself.” I found it interesting since while yes, I do work a lot, I don’t feel there’s any area of my life that things are not being done my way, nor that I need to be liberated from anything.  I’m riding a happy wave with work, personal life, health. Continue reading

A fun and synchronistic day – definitely in the vortex today

smiley girl-72They delivered the November issue of Horizons Magazine this morning.  I awoke to 60 degree weather. I drank a cup of black tea and drove to the downtown post office.  Afterward I took mags to Creative  Energy and saw Morgana Starr, Jinn and Kathy Duncan and we chatted awhile outside in the cool morning air.  A guy pulls up in a huge old beat up Continental and he’s blaring reggae music and does a five point landing to parallel park. We stop to watch him and dance to the music and when he gets out of the car, we give him a standing ovation!  He laughed, we were all in the groove and having fun. Continue reading

Beware the narcissistic sociopath disguised as your “Soul Mate”

Paula Renee writes: Will You Be My Next Soul Mate? The idea of a soul mate is very romantic. To meet someone else in this world of billions who shares your same values, interests, desires, and goals is an exhilarating notion, don’t you think? It’s possible to meet someone who, at any given moment in time, is at the same place you are geographically and spiritually. But to think two people can remain on a joint wavelength over many, many years is, in my mind, a set up for failure. Yet, we continue to watch those silly movies that end in “happily ever after” and fool ourselves into thinking it’s real. Enter the narcissistic sociopath. A master at making the magic SEEM real just long enough to send you spiraling into a fog. The  narcissist as our “SOUL MATE” is cunning and knows who to select and who to avoid. He will come on strong, sweep us off our feet. He seems to have the same values, interests, goals, philosophies, tastes, habits. He admires our intellect, ambition, honesty and sincerity. He wants to marry us quickly. He fakes integrity, appears helpful, comforting, generous in his ‘idealization’ of us phase. It never lasts. Eventually Jekyll turns into Hyde. Continue reading

Mercury Retrograde in Scorpio Oct 21 to Nov 10, 2013

retrograde means copyAll three of the Mercury retrograde zones in 2013, are in water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces). Mercury in water has a filter of feelings. So a retrograde in water signs adds the power of authentic emotion to what we’re saying, perceiving, picking up by vibes. This is one way to see how a retro recovery can enrich our lives. If we’ve denied how we really feel about a person or situation, Mercury re-aligns us with that emotional intel. It’s a great time to rediscover personal meaning, in life experiences, through memories, impressions, serendipity. This retro also inspires us to share with others what’s in the depths. A water sign Mercury turns its wheels on moods, so spend time in places that have atmosphere, are somehow magical, evocative. The imagination finds a groove with the right music or cinema, a book or friend, time in the wild or in a state of alert daydreaming. Continue reading

Life is too good to be dragged into your grumpiness

Wow, all the amazing good stuff life around us has to offer and some people choose to focus on little nitpicky stuff and try to drag us into it. It’s all like little Sally won’t let Billy play with her ball and they want us to take sides. Work it out, this is the stuff life is made of. Enjoy it. If you knew the amazing potential within you, you’d change your focus right away.