From 1992 to 1996 I was married to Lee.  Lee was a troubled soul.  In the 80’s, he’d served 6 years on a Texas prison for an alcohol-related incident in which his wife died.  I met Lee when he paroled to Florida to live with his father.  A DUI charge bought him into the law office where I worked and we immediately hit it off.  Lee’s downfall was that he drowned himself daily in the self talk of his own mental anguish. Continue reading →

This morning I awoke early and well rested after yesterday’s uncluttering.  I began in the garage, first driving my Prius out onto the driveway so I had an empty space as a staging area.  I first moved my trusty sawhorses into place and made a table by setting on top of them two 1″ x 8″ shelves about 8 feet long.  I began pulling  items down that were not where they belonged.  I made a few stacks of that:  string, wire, rope, that would all be placed together somewhere.  Duct tape, masking tape, painter’s tape would all go together.  Painting supplies by themselves and wood carving supplies on their own.  Bicycle maintenance gear will have its own shelf near the compressors.   I set my little Ryobi air compressor to charge and swept a clean space on the floor for the heavier electric compressor.  I’d set my portable drill to charge the day before, so it was good to go.    Continue reading →

I wrote a few months ago that I’d acquired a roommate after more than a dozen years of self imposed solitary living.  It’s both a joy and a yoga having someone around all the time.  It helps that he’s a best friend and adventure partner as well, and we share many of the same interests.  I have odd sleeping and eating patterns, so we often sleep at different times and rarely eat the same meal at the same time.  Except late night popcorn!  I am used to having giant spans of hours and days not having to speak to anyone, living in my silent world, tv usually muted but on since I use it as caller id.  I’ve noticed myself gravitating to more tv now, with the sound on, since there are a few shows we watch together.  That can quickly turn into sitting in front of the tv during times I formerly spent watering the plants, doing yoga in the garden, working on home or yard projects, going to the gym, sleeping, and having phone sessions all through the night. Continue reading →

I just found this file, written in the 90’s. Some things never change.  “My thoughts after attending an annual, popular metaphysical/spiritual conference:  These are the judgmental thoughts I’ve been having after being privy to after hours conversations after some might’ve had a few too many drinks. People who write egotistical press copy about themselves to work the system to become the next celebrity speaker/teacher. Witness a conversation a dozen years ago at one conference: two speakers about becoming famous, it was after the Celestine Prophecy went big. What storyline to create, what products to weave into them and get into the market, what courses to create, etc.  People who constantly self reference and self promote and market.  People who ingratiate themselves with others to be hosts for their local events, yet all the while talking behind their back. People who are public teachers and yet privately judge (like me right now) and disparage and criticize. People who, throughout their talks, continually talk about what they’ve done and how important they are. Continue reading →

Apparently I committed a major faux pas today. I saw a lesbian acquaintance at a friend’s place of business.  I recognized her from the back and said, “Sandy, hi.”  That’s the name I know her by, although she also goes by a nickname which did not immediately come to mind since her giant tattoo was on the side away from me.  I haven’t seen her in 15+ years.  She ignored me and wouldn’t even turn around when I touched her on the shoulder and said, “hi, it’s Andrea.”  She got up and left, saying goodbye to the store owner and not even turning in my direction.  I was told she no longer goes by “Sandy” at all.  She now only answers to the nickname.  She considers herself a man, not a lesbian. Dude,  WTF? For the record, I don’t care about your genitalia, nor whether you’re straight or gay, nor what color nor religion nor size and shape nor political party you are.  If you reached the age of 30 being known as one name, don’t be shocked when some unknowing someone from the past calls you that name.  So what if they don’t know your new name or your new rules.  It’s simple courtesy to say, “Hi, please call me “Barry.” ‘Nuff said.  Communication is the key.

How often do you think that the ones who give advice would be better off taking it themselves?  That’s the dilemma, isn’t it?   When we are going through our own personal growth process, our own transformation, ascension, dark night of the soul, illumination, that’s when we begin to seriously seek answers.  While we’re still the unformed chunk of coal, we don’t yet understand that the insights that come to us are meant for US — not for anyone around us.  Most often, the human mind/ego that likes to think itself separate and apart from others is in charge.  To those newly upon the Path, the mind makes you think that you and you alone are going through this, that you and you alone are receiving information and guidance from a higher source, and that you and you alone are the messenger sent to save everyone around you, maybe the world.   Continue reading →

I’m used to sleeping twice a day.  I love the feeling of falling sleep and this way I get to do it twice a day.  I like the fresh burst of energy I have upon waking up, so sleeping twice gives me two bursts of energy.  It gives me the illusion of getting two days worth of work in one 24 hour period.  I’ll have insomnia for years at a time and then it will stop for a few years.  I’ve been prescribed all kinds of sleep stuff and find it lets me sleep for only 3 hours at a time, whether it’s Ambien, Remeron, Trazodone.  Here are links to the natural supplements I found work for me.  The short version: First try Hyland’s Calms Forte, Valerian Root and Melatonin.  Here are the links.

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In a recent reading with Domino, we talked about her relationship with her new man.  “Like most men, he thinks my body is ready the moment he gets an erection.”   They’ve known each other 2 years and just recently became lovers.  Now she’s wondering if she made a mistake and if they’re on the way to ruining their friendship. She and I have talked about this before with her previous lovers.  The simple answer is (1) know what you like, then (2) tell him and show him.  If you’re intimate enough with this man to have sex with him, you’re intimate enough to discuss it with him.  If you know what your body responds to, honor him by telling him the sequence of touch and caress that gets you there.  If he forgets and acts hastily, slow him down and remind him.  At first, if he’s not trained to be real conscious about sex, be prepared for him to get his feelings hurt and stop altogether.  Believe me, that’s preferable to faking an orgasm and becoming more and more unsatisfied without him knowing it. If he has to be continually reminded, she has to decide if it’s worth the hassle. Continue reading →

At  Inverted Body Scanner Image Shows Naked Body In Full Living Color, it is reported, “The full body scanners to be rolled out in airports across the country not only produce detailed pictures of your genitals, but once inverted some of those images also display your naked body in full living color.  And you don’t need to be a graphics wizard to pull off the trick – inverting a photo is a simple process that takes one click and is an option available even in the most basic image editing software.

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Today was an odd Father’s Day for sure.  For the past 20 years, I’ve been used to working almost every holiday, because that’s when some of my clients are alone, have the time and most want the appointment.  My own dad died on Father’s Day, but I know we survive in consciousness after the change called death, so it’s not a sad day for me.  For others, it can be a day that is difficult to get through, as is Easter and Christmas and Thanksgiving.  I typically have a half dozen readings scheduled and that’s how my day is spent. Happily spent, I might add, since I enjoy my work.  I enjoy interacting with everyone and I learn from them as well.  I learn about myself as I learn about them.  This Father’s Day I spent relaxing at home, cooking some good food, napping, hanging with the Roomi.  What I learned about myself is that well, I miss working on a day that I know a lot of emotion is in the air, a day I’m used to being available for friends to chat it out if they want to.  Old habits die hard, huh? Hmmm, do workaholics ever really retire?