It’s been awhile since I felt this free in my own home. I spent a year behind closed blinds, walled in with wall hangings as room dividers inside, with trees and hedges lining the outside. I felt I had to keep myself to myself, safe and secure away from… whatever my mind came up with at the time. Lately I’ve been breaking down the walls inside and out and it feels good.  For the first time in a dozen years, I have zero wall hangings up in the living room sitting area.  None. The place feels huge and expansive.  I can look right out the sliding glass door to the backyard and right out the front windows into the courtyard. I feel I no longer have anything that I need to keep a barrier between.  Not that I’d been shutting anything out, just that I’m someone who likes a lot of privacy.  Some friends are easier than others to share time and space with Some friends have such a gentle ease about them that their very presence encourages expansion. When I spend time with those friends, the walls come down and my world becomes huge and limitless.  All things seem possible. My world just became even more wonderful.

I’ve got this… little quirk.  When I am working or sleeping, I don’t like someone watching me. I’m not talking about a casual glance over at me, I mean a sustained direct looking at me if I am otherwise engaged.  My psychic training included training my nervous system to be extremely sensitive to the energy field around me.  It’s one reason I eat the foods I eat and have the meditation disciplines I have. After surprising a pal whose gaze woke me up when I crashed on his couch, I contemplated why I consider it/label it invasive or oppressive.  Then I thought, that must be what performers feel from the audience.  It IS a tangible thing that can be felt in the air.  Some people enjoy it, some not so much. Continue reading →

The best thing that ever happened to you, you never expected. The worst thing that ever happened to you, you never expected.

Sitting on the beach at sunset, chanting and watching the tide come in. Waiting for the full moon to rise, the beach almost empty, one couple here, another walking by. Lightning. A sandy scurry home to open doors to watch the light display and listen to the rain. The moon stayed hidden by the clouds, even now still hiding.  These are the moments that make life blissful. Just simply this. 

I was recalling a Byron Katie exercise that’s very effective for bringing a sense of clarity and peace:  She takes us into our thoughts of a disastrous future, you’re sick, you have lost your family, lost your money, lost everything that you believe is you. They are taking away everything as you sit on the curb with everything gone. Now close your eyes and see yourself there, your just sitting there peaceful. Even in this distorted future in your mind, sitting there on the curb, in that moment you’re OK. Now come back to right now, drop all your thoughts, notice that right now, right in this moment, you are OK.

Then: Bring toothbrush.
Now:  Bring iPad.

Don’t lament the heart that cracks open to let in the Light.  Just as in yoga where we intentionally tense the muscle so it can fully relax when we release it, sometimes there needs to be a big blowup before everything can settle into wholeness. Don’t let a match made in heaven slip away because your ego can’t handle the personality.

I merged so completely with Love, and was so fused, that I became Love and Love became me.~~Rumi

A new client just told me I’m nothing like she’d been led to expect. She’d only recently discovered me and the magazine which she found through a link on someone’s page.  She’d heard a story about a story and got curious and booked a series of sessions with me.  Now that she’s gotten to know me, she said, she realizes she’d received incorrect info about me, from a misguided individual with an obvious agenda. I can’t really blame the people who criticize me without first hand knowing anything about me.  I was just like them once, so I can empathize.  A friend tells a story that we pass on, not knowing the cosmic/karmic consequence we bring down on ourselves for not checking the truth before passing it along.  After awhile, we wise up and live only in the truth. Life’s too short not to. We live, we learn. We grow up, we do better. All in our own time.  My job is to keep loving no matter what comes back.
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I never need to wonder what my vibrational resonance, or my point of attraction is, because it is always being played out right in front of me. Every situation or person I encounter is evidence to me of what I’ve been vibing. If I’m having a less than stellar time,  I can’t blame anyone else. The only thing that got me there was the focus of my own attention.  Since it’s all related, failure to make peace in any area of my life will show up as resistance in other areas. When I’m engaged in doing good works and supporting others, I find myself supported by friends and strangers alike, I enjoy good health and I feel a huge sense of personal freedom. When I find myself in lack and limitation, my experience is that means I have inner work to do to tie up loose ends. And I never have to have a moment’s suspense. The evidence is always right in front of me.  As hopeless as any situation feels, it’s really only your thoughts that you’re dealing with, and you have the power to change those. Open your eyes and heart to dissolve the illusion and experience the perfection that Is.