Today I’ll pump up my tire and take it to a tire place to be checked for why it’s leaking air.  Probably as a signal to deflate my ego just a little bit, that I’m getting too full of hot air.  It’s not like I don’t know when that happens.  If I cut it out on my own, the Universe wouldn’t have to deflate my tire.

My real life, longtime friend and spiritual brother Dom Durso wrote on Facebook today:  “Can any one describe the feeling of love?  Why do you feel you are correct?  The reason I ask is many have an opinion on the subject.  But not many are masters.
Some are self professed masters.  What do you Know, Feel or Think about it?” Dom is always good for a provocative question, so I like when he posts them on my Wall.

I replied: Dom, briefly, when I feel what I call Love, I experience saturation, feeling immersed in a brilliant radiance, the sense of an overwhelmingly loving and comforting Presence, the complete relief of all concerns (since seen from that perspective it’s all do-able.)  I feel it with people, places and things.  What I know is that when I feel it – no matter what generates it – I can direct the feeling into healing, and into any situation I want to aim an enhanced thought into for the purpose of creative visualization.  It feels not much different when it’s personal love, family love or romantic, sexual love. Just going from loving the formless to loving the form.  That’s what it is for me.

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Oh neat, I just checked my Lotto tickets for Aug 31 through Nov 5th, 2011, numbers 5-28-32-35-39-43 and won $84 plus 2 free tickets.  It helps that I expect this to happen every so often.  And I know how much I expect it and believe it by how often it happens and how much I win.

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I wrote earlier about how instead of blocking someone, let me overcome my desire to block them.   A good friend, a platonic spiritual brother, has a non-local girlfriend who  friended me on Facebook this year.  Shortly after I wrote My two cents about working toward being together, she blocked me.   In essence, I said (relative to her) “If the two of you have made an agreement about when to be together, work toward it.   Whoever is not working toward it has a different agenda. ”  Am I irked that she blocked me?   Obviously since I’m writing this.  And yes, it’s none of my business, no matter how much I want to protect a pal.  But is my ego disappointed that she won’t see the sometimes snarky comments I make on her man’s wall?  Or am I just insensitive that, for whatever reason, her seeing my name and my comments do not give her a good feeling and she doesn’t want to deal with it right now?  That’s when I block someone, so why not her, too? And me, are my snarky comments more designed to encourage her to come join  her beloved?  Or to make her feel insecure by being openly flirtatious about him?  Forget her agenda, what’s my agenda? I either want for my friends what they want for themselves, or I don’t.   Boy, have I got some work to do on myself. In the meantime, let me see if I can just shut up now.

I unfriended someone on Facebook a month ago because she was really unfair to a good buddy when divorce time came.  Now she makes comments on my Public posts and I thought well, I’ll just block her.   Then I thought, why bother?   Let me instead learn to see her name and her words without being triggered or thinking she should do anything to please me.  Let me use my aggravation to practice not being attached to what she does or did or did not do.

A friend made a joke on Facebook about being topless in their yard and after years of working for criminal defense attorneys and seeing some serious sentencing for what often amounted to merely intoxication and public urination, I have a BIG GIANT caveat.  In case anyone thinks that idea sounds cute and fun, public nudity = a criminal charge of indecent exposure for which you’ll be placed on a sexual offender list, have to register as a sex offender twice a year forever, be restricted to curfew, undergo regular drug/alcohol screening, you can’t own a computer with internet access, your home will be subjected to random searches for sexual related info, no visiting topless clubs or hanging where kids hang, you have to disclose the name of your sexual partners and disclose to them your offender status, and more.  Check the laws in your state for how it will affect your employment, etc.  Yeah, not such a cute idea anymore, huh?  Live and learn.

I unfriended someone on Facebook last week in a snit and a day later she graciously accepted my friend request.  I asked her to pardon my snit, I can be such an ass.

Don’t you love it when you’re napping and the phone rings and you want to ignore but can’t and it’s someone reading a love poem they wrote you?  Awwww…

Interesting how you can go your whole life and have people treat you one way and you think that is how life is and that is who you are and then suddenly you wake up to how life can really be and who you really are, and it’s so much better than you ever dreamed of?