I have been wanting to nap more lately. I just can’t make myself stay in bed if I am awake though.  Now I can stay in a recliner for hours and hours!  That’s why I gave mine away last year.  I like to make myself get moving around and the rule is if the tv is on, I have to be on the floor doing yoga and stretching.

7-19-08 Dream
Although I wasn’t quite asleep yet, it was vivid. A group of maybe 8 male and female professionally dressed (suits, and suits with skirts) on a well groomed front lawn that has a flower garden along the front of it. The people appear to lift the sod and flowers in order to sit up with their legs stretched out in front of them, knees bent, legs under the sod, feet sticking out the other end. They are all just sitting kind of “at attention” except the feeling is friendly and like they are waiting to be judged maybe. I get the feeling they all work together or are a team.

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end of dream

I got my Toro 20065 mower today, Francis across the street said he’d help me put it together, since he has the same model.  We’ll do that next week.   I also am trying to decide between two hedge trimmers.  A really lightweight cheaper one  Homelite 2.7 Amp. 17 In. Hedge Trimmer – UT44110 at The Home Depot (price only $30) weight 4.7 lbs and this one step up one Click here: Homelite :: UT44120 3.7 amp  22in. Hedge Trimmer (price was only $36) weight 5.5.  They are both lightweights tho. I got them both and figured I’d decide which one to open, I hate to return something I’ve used even once.  The smaller one I may use more since it’s lighter and shorter, but the bigger one I thought maybe would be sturdier for getting the small palmetto fronds along my paths.  The Palm bay store was out of them and wouldn’t have more until June 30, so I called the New Haven store and they had one left and I asked them to put my name on it and I went and picked it up.

Mag is done!  I can rest tomorrow!

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I called to wish brother Jerry happy birthday and woke him up about 7am.   I’ve been cooking the last several days so I don’t have to leave work for long, and have been doing a chicken breast each day.  When I buy them, I package them one at a time in baggies.  Then I butterfly them as they thaw, while they are still half frozen, and squirt lemon juice and soy sauce into the baggie with them.  I’ve been this week cooking them this way:  Nonstick pan sprayed with Pam, cook 3-4 sliced garlic cloves and one onion.  Sprinkle both sides of chicken breast with salt, pepper, garlic powder, oregano powder, paprika, thyme, about 1/2 tsp each.  Then a sprinkle of cayenne pepper (I don’t like a lot of cayenne) and this is my basic blackening seasoning.  Then I cook first one side, then the other, a few minutes each side.  Spray pan when turning chicken over to other side.  Then I add about 1/4 cup water to the pan and let it simmer for a few minutes.  Ta dah!

I’ve been working and not much else. I drove out yesterday for the first time in days to eat a pho soup, worked the entire weekend, missed church and meetings, the days are a blur now.  Mag has to be in first thing Monday.  I can do it, I always do.

I need to go to Home Depot and buy a lawnmower (Toro 20065)

I used to have a problem saying no and then I would commit to something and cancel at the last minute and made lots of people mad at me.  I knew I could work on my commitment issues, and do things I promised to do even though I didn’t want to, and while I resented having to face the consequence of my actions.  Or I could just stop committing.  Work on that issue in another lifetime.  Let people get mad at me for being noncommittal rather than for disappointing them.

A dream where there is a tugboat but it’s really a luxury yacht and it is pulling a big giant cruise ship and somehow I know the tugboat represents me and the ship represents people I’ve helped from behind the scenes or just to take them from their safe harbor and guide them into deeper waters.  I feel proud.

I am on top of one building with another next door. Someone else and I have to move between the buildings and use a ladder to bridge the gap. The ladder is not quite tall enough but we make it anyway.

Some premonitions for today, which I’ll check tomorrow to see if got any hits:

1. a flag, stars n stripes Old glory
2. empty cardboard boxes piled up tall
3. child running after red ball
4. mountain in the distance with snow on top
5. 368

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“You don’t want to save the world, you want to serve the emerging paradigm” Rev. Michael Beckwith

I have just been busy working. And shopping for a lawnmower.  I decided I want to do my lawn myself for awhile, I can’t seem to make it to the gym and treadmill since I stay tied to the computer, so doing my own yardwork and housework seems like a healthy habit to get into.  I bought a little Magic Blue vacuum cleaner a few months ago – when my housekeeper told me she had to stop working on her feet and have some foot surgery – and I actually started having fun cleaning my own place. Who knew?  Continue reading →

Well I got 3 out of 5 for $9 on last night’s Fantasy 5.  I’ve been playing the lottery a bit, I used to always get a quick pick, but this time I am picking my numbers for the Fantasy Five and Lotto.  I’ve had some luck with the Monopoly and Lucky 7’s scratch off tickets also.  My rule is I can only use lottery winnings to buy more tickets, or change I have in the car.  So far I am about even. And I’m actively doing visualization about watching them draw the numbers and me checking the numbers on my ticket and seeing they are winners and getting excited about it.  As soon as I wake up in the morning, I think “today’s the day, let me check my numbers and see what I’ve won”.   Continue reading →

Doug and I have moved to a new place, or Doug has and I’m visiting, It belongs to a friend who has not yet moved out, so the house is packed with someone else’s stuff. There is a group over helping to move us in, and I have just my one big suitcase and it’s on my bed in the back room. My bathroom has a small water leak, so there is a little standing water at the base of the toilet but everything works.  It is dusty around the edges of everything and a little dirty, but not bad. There is a lot of furniture and books and papers (writing papers and business mail, not newspapers) in stacks along the halls and walkways. It is like 6am and it is in a neighborhood that has some big trees but the homes are close together like an old school neighborhood. Behind us is s school of sorts, and there is a phys ed class out in the field.   Continue reading →

Staying at someone else’s house with a boyfriend who had a daughter who was there with us also.  Her sleeping “room” was behind some curtains, he got out of bed to check on her.  I thought I should put some clothes on, since we are in someone else’s house, although sleeping.  I get up to use the bathroom and wrap the sheet around me.  I end up walking the halls in a large hotel and have this sheet wrapped around me and think “this is just like the dream the other night, walking the halls of a large hotel in a sheet” and then it turns into like a big hospital kind of gown except it is like a patchwork big dress.  I check it out and see I don’t have to hold it together to keep it closed, so I just start walking around.   I am in the wrong hallway again looking for my boyfriend (it might have been KB) and I’ve brought my phone, except it’s a new phone and I can’t remember his number anyway to call him. Besides of course the 6 is missing. I look out one big window and see we’re near the ocean and we are high up so I can see the colors of the water below.  I still can’t remember his number, I am also carrying what I thought was my wallet and i.d. but turns out to be Daddy’s little NavyCut box. I set the box and phone down while I check my dress again to make sure I’m decent, and a woman starts talking to me and it takes me a moment to find my box and phone again.

The past two weeks, I’ve been re-reading a 1966 Seth book and asking to remember my dreams and then recording my dreams.  I keep a note here at my desk saying: Test yourself consciously and continuously throughout the day: Am I dreaming now? Am I dreaming now? so it becomes natural for you to ask yourself that in your sleep. It takes a while to record the dreams and you don’t have to analyze them right away.  If you – as soon as you wake up – quickly run the dreams back thru your mind, it will lock them into your short term memory long enough to let you get it written down.  Even if I am just jumping up quickly to powder my nose at 5am, I run the dream over in my mind even if I don’t want to write it down until I wake up “for real”.