Bypassing more traditional ideas of Good Friday, I take note of where personal issues  stop me from living through my indwelling Christ Mind. What happened between the time of the Crucifixion and the Resurrection? I imagine that there was a sense of loss, suffering, stillness and waiting.  This Good Friday, I will sit to contemplate as the loving expression of the Divine, to be present to this loss, to hold space for healing, and to shine the Eternal Light of hope. I willingly release my own self-judgment and doubt, as I prepare myself for the emergence of the Sacred Self.

Don’t worry about losing your way. If you do, pain will remind you to find your path again. Joy will let you know when you are back on it. ~ Martha Beck

I wrote yesterday that my oldest and dearest childhood friend Wally Smith had passed. We had crushes on each other since elementary school.  We never dated but were the best of buds.  His friendship outlasted all boyfriends and husbands. I did not expect this loss to make me feel that lighting has struck half of me away. I’ve never felt that before.  I’ve been widowed three times but each relationship was less than three years and all in my 20′s – 30′s. Not enough time to get deeply enmeshed. But Wally I’ve known since I was 7.  Grief is a new emotion to observe.  Feeling I’ve lost something is a new emotion to observe.  Today I will spend time going into my emotion and learn from it whatever it has to teach me.  “The cycle of grief has its own timetable. Until that cycle is honored and completed we are moving along life’s path with an anchor down.” — Ann Linnea, Deep Water Passage

My childhood friend, Wally (Walter Clarence Smith) was born September 2, 1952 in Hialeah, FL.  He and his family lived down the street from us during our childhood years.  We were the best of friends.  We attended school together from elementary through graduation at Hialeah High in 1970.  We kept in touch as we grew older and moved away from our hometown.  Our last visit was just a month ago at his home.  He passed away on March 12, 2013.  He is survived by his loving sister, my dear, beloved friend Linda Smith.  Always one to chose his own destiny, it was Wally’s choice when to drop his earthly robes for his final walk.  You’ll be missed, my brother.  There will never be another like you. We’ll meet again.

The tide recedes but leaves behind
bright seashells on the sand.
The sun goes down, but gentle
warmth still lingers on the land.
The music stops, and yet it echoes
on in sweet refrains…..
For every joy that passes,
something beautiful remains
~Unknown

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And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year: “Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.”  And he replied:  “Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way.”

So I went forth, and finding the Hand of God, trod gladly into the night. And He led me towards the hills and the breaking of day in the lone East.   Continue reading →

This happened again today. I’ve been taking Benadryl and Mucinex for 3 days so have been a little fuzzy headed.  I just walked into my office for the first time today and my eye glasses are hanging across the monitor. That’s no big deal but it means I drove to Melbourne and delivered mags without my glasses on this morning… sheesh the stuff we make ourselves believe.  I wrote at I get a great lesson in the power of my beliefs about eyeglasses:   I had a great lesson in the power of my beliefs this morning.

As usual on final layout week, I spend extra hours at the computer, creating and revising ads, opening mail, logging in payments, seeing who’s paid and who needs to pay, playing phone tag with a dozen new advertisers getting last minute details, making last minute adjustments to design and layout. So I work well into the night and get up early to begin again. And this morning was no different.  I woke up groggy, wishing I could have just a little more sleep, but excited about doing the final touches on the magazine. I note the time on the wall clock – 6:20 am – and sleepily make it into the office. I go over my To Do List and begin making my way down the list. I check email and get a final ad. I respond to a few emails.  I place the ad and am about to begin my Table of Contents when I notice my eyeglass case next to the keyboard in front of me. My eyeglass case. Empty, of course. Not because I have them on, but because they’re in the living room next to the couch where I slept last night. Hmmm, how can that be?  Continue reading →

“Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it’s all over.”  – Octavia Butler

The thoughts we send out to those from our past, will be visited upon those we bring into our Now.  Make sure to always wish for everyone in your past only what you wish for yourself in your Now and in your future.

I get about a dozen calls a week from companies wanting to handle my debt recovery. I have no business debt. An ad goes in when it’s paid for. A reading is paid for at time of service.  In 21 years I’ve only once had someone NOT pay.  And she still may, I don’t want to take score too soon.  I think paying up front keeps honest people honest and let’s them know that yes, they can come up with the money and not have to rely on credit or loan. It empowers them to have them pay on time.  I’m all about empowering my friends so they can have as happy a life as I have.

It’s midnight and I just came in from outside, where I sat watching that beautiful full moon drift across the sky.  It’s almost directly overhead right now.  I love following the cycles of the moon, it reminds me everything is a cycle and there is order to the Universe.  Although I’ve had a cold the past few days, I feel good. It’s almost like it’s happening to someone else and I get to watch it.  The generic Benadryl (diphenhydramine) and Mucinex (guaifenesin) totally take the sniffles and cough away and catching up on sleep is awesome.  In June 2010 I wrote What I do when I forget what I know that I was five days into a giant head cold before I remembered what to take for it.  I lucked out this time.  I remembered and looked for my blog post about it and sure enough, same symptoms.  I caught it on the first day, and upped my vitamin C and D3.  I know one reason that colds don’t knock me down anymore is that my eating habits have changed.  Bread was my final frontier, the final starchy, processed food I stopped eating daily.  Now I have the occasional bread, pasta, rice crackers or canned soup maybe 2-3 times a month.  Otherwise nothing from a box or package. Mostly I eat vegetables, potatoes, chicken, fish or turkey.  I am convinced that the processed foods clog up the digestive system so it cannot do an efficient job of taking nutrients in from what I eat.  So when I eat lighter, if a head cold comes up, it has a cleaner system to move through so will be over with much quicker.  So far, so good.

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