“Are you going to be a nun or find a husband?” my 87 year old aunt asked me. Oh? It’s come to this? THOSE are my choices? “I want you to get married and be happy,” she says. “Well, which is it?” I ask. My experience is married isn’t fun for long. I choose happy. “Smarty pants,” she says, “no wonder you don’t have a husband.” Ah! Another mystery solved.
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It becomes enchanted here at nightfall
It becomes a different world here in the midnight hours. I live in Paradise every day but at night is when the enchantment begins. Like right now. It’s a beautiful evening out there, a balmy 76, light breeze, moonrise not for another hour, then another hour+ to make it over the tree line. There’s night blooming jasmine in the air. The nightly parade of critters has begun. For me, this is the time to take a walkabout, then sit and soak up the night. Each day as I bring work to a close, I review what needs to be done the next day. Then I leave work at the office. When I ponder at night, it’s more about basking in appreciative thoughts of what magic the day has brought me, or seeing where I stand on any personal issues I may be working through. Most recently, I had 4 close to me pass in the last 3 months. I get waves of feeling grief and loss, all the while knowing there is no death. Ongoing estate matters keep the topic fresh in my mind. One I lost in March was a friend of 54 years, and my sole confidante. I feel that loss acutely every day. At the same time, it is good to have no one to discuss things with. It throws me back into myself and sends me pondering in the midnight hours. In the quiet, in the night, thoughts become more clear. What seems tangled becomes smoothed free. That’s the magic of the nighttime. It’s the perfect setting to step into the mystic and unravel truth from illusion. Mysticism is defined as the pursuit of communion with the Source or God through experience, intuition and insight. It is for this reason I typically live a monastic life, as it is conducive to the cultivation of the mystical state of consciousness. The session work I do with friends depends upon my state of consciousness. It is for this reason I put my time in to become enchanted with nature, under the stars, listening to what the Universe has to tell me. It’s where I get my continuing education to keep me qualified for my profession 🙂
My horoscope says this month I’ll fall in love
My June 2013 horoscope by Barbara Lee reads: Your relationship arena will be the focus for this month. Stranger things will happen especially when you find yourself falling in love at first sight with someone you have only just met. When endings seem to happen abruptly, know that they have been brewing for a long time and you just have to prepare for a new beginning.
Transformational Pranayama Workshop Saturday June 1st, 2013 with Al Rapaport from 11am-1pm in Melbourne, FL
Transformational Pranayama Workshop June 1st at 11:00am at Open Mind Zen Center, 878 Sarno Road, Melbourne, FL 32935. This session of sustained deep breathing can have a host of positive physical, emotional and spiritual effects, including: Deep Feelings of Relaxation and Joy, Increased Physical Energy & Sports Performance, Improved Mental Clarity, Lower Blood Pressure, Relief of Stress, Emotional Balance, Pain Relief, Increased Connection to Source. Sensei Al Rapaport is an authorized Transformational Breathwork Facilitator with over 40 years experience with yoga, meditation and the human energy system. $25. I began studying the kundalini syndrome in the 70’s after a personal awakening at the passing of my husband. My research and experience with others tells me the best way to regulate new energy coming alive when one undergoes a personal transformation is to establish a daily breathing practice and stick to it. I look forward to Al’s workshop.
No more waiting to get on with my life
Last night I went to The POD and saw Richard Mekdeci, Sue Riley and Jana Stanfield in concert. Awesome and uplifting as always. I resonate with Jana’s song “I don’t want to be George Bailey waiting for the right time.” I think of a time that for an entire 12 months, a friend and I were waiting for one thing or another before we could get into a routine with each other. A routine where I could sleep and work, and where their routine would not disturb my responsibilities or income. A routine of daily spiritual practice together. It took a year to realize we were not working toward the same goal, although we said we were. I had plenty of time to notice no effort on their part. I chose instead to make excuses to myself and to everyone else for them. DID THEY MAKE ME MISS A YEAR OF LIFE? Nope. I wanted to believe the dream, that we could have this cool soul brother friendship and that we’d come to it as equals. We never got that chance. I could have made another decision at any time but chose not to. My bad. I don’t wanna be George Bailey either, no more waiting.
Lyrics here
I Don’t Want To Be George Bailey Waiting for the Right Time, For a Clear Sign…
I Don’t Want To Be George Bailey Youtube.com video here
Jana Stanfield LYRICS:
Every December since I can remember
I’ve watched the same movie,
Despite what it does to me.
It’s a wonderful life but it passes by so fast,
I hate to sound gloomy,
But it’s the story of a guy standing on a bridge,
Seeing all he ever wanted, all the things he never did,
Missing every minute of the life he never lived. Oh… Continue reading
You live most of your relationship in your head
Just got off the phone, a client with a recurring theme: When you start to miss the “one who got away,” remember that 90% of the relationship was all in your head anyway. That means you can recreate it all over again, this time with upgrades.
There’s always an opportunity to make it right
Am I surprised that someone who professes to know how it all works now pretends to not know how they continue to attract that? No. That’s the unconscious personality, professing to know it all. Now begins the integration, since life is starting to get real. When the pendulum swings again, the soul will seek forgiveness. The personality will again express itself as the humble and kind and sensitive, caring one, instead of merely the initial facade of that. It will have a new opportunity to make it right. With everyone. I have no doubts. It’s hidden right now but still inside, awaiting birth, awaiting forgiveness, awaiting recognition. Patience.
Singing that old song is doing you more harm than good
Uh oh, it would appear Chicken Little has caused the sky to fall on her own head… She might consider singing a new song, a song of happy times to come.
A primal meditation sitting in the pouring rain
I wrapped up in a sheet and sat in the pouring rain last night in the backyard. It had been raining off and on, short spells of pouring. I was reminded of a powerful waterfall meditation I’d had once at a retreat, so I prepared for it. I pulled a bedsheet out of the closet and wrapped it around me like a cloak. I went out into the backyard and found a grassy spot to sit on. The skies were cloudy, no moon in sight at 9:30 pm. It was about 77 degrees. I began by preparing myself by breathing rhythmically. Within a few moments, a downpour hit and I could feel it pummel down on me. I had the sheet over my head as well, but within a moment I was soaked through. I’d prepared myself for the chill by doing yogic fire breaths. Continue reading