I stopped eating bread on Mother’s Day.  I’d begun eating it in July 2013.  In ten months, it put an extra 10 pounds on me. My face likes the ten pounds.  My waist doesn’t.  I’ve learned that bread is my drug. When I avoid it, all is well.  When I think I can have just a slice or two of toasted Ezekial every week or so, that quickly turns into having a toasted english muffin every day. I catch myself doing it and I still do it.  “Let me just finish this package and I won’t buy it again.” It becomes a race to finish them. More than once I’ve carried food over to the boyfriend’s place to get it out of my house.  He has my box of wheat saltines right now. But, as soon as I made the decision to JUST STOP eating bread, it became easy.  I had to get to that point first. I had to get to that state of mind.  Once I reached that level of consciousness, my other food choices came into focus again. I didn’t care about bread as I changed my focus. Continue reading →

That chaos crap storm you keep being plagued with? Stop and ask yourself why you’re attracting it.  You already know HOW you’re attracting it.  The question is WHY you keep attracting it.  What is your soul trying to get across to you? What does inner guidance say when you ask? You are the only one who can answer that.

Yowza, Real Housewives of NYC, Ramona would rather blow up in a rage and turn into a screaming banshee rather than admit to a lie.  She’d rather distract from the real question at hand and make it all about something else.  That seems to be her storyline. It must be as exhausting for her as it is to watch. It takes exactly one time someone acting like that with me for me to be done. As an adult, you learn to have respectful discussion. But I get it. By acting that way, she gets more air time. And for some people, it’s all about air time.

Talk yourself into it. No matter what, it’s really only a thought you’re dealing with, and you have the power to change those.

Behind every complaint is a deep personal longing. John Gottman

Benny the Cat is hanging inside because old black wildTom is hanging outside. YinYang chased him off twice today. You don’t have to go home, Tom, but you can’t stay here. Yinnie has been very fighty this week. She’s been protecting the little prince by keeping him inside. I thought she was trapping him to be a bitch. When you feel someone is hindering you, they may actually be helping you. Good? Bad? Don’t take score too soon.

Saturday I woke up from a sound sleep and was on the phone with someone, finishing up a conversation.  Well, in my mind that’s what it sounded like. I have no idea what actually babbled out of my mouth.  I never mean to answer the phone while I am sleeping, however I’m a sleep walker and sleep talker, so it happens.

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The good, the bad and the ugly.

When we’re at MY place and I’m training MY cat, I’d appreciate you not holding an opposing thought form that makes me address MY issue of giving you so much power over my experience. Thank you.

Get a Grip

Get a grip.  You have a chance for a real life with her.  You can be honest with her now or you can continue to let your lies eat away your entire life.  It’s your choice.  So what if you cop to a few stupid lies that she repeated thinking it was gospel?  She’ll be proud you were courageous enough to admit it, knowing how painful it was for you.  Honor her by stopping this cycle.  When you do, the floodgates will open like you’ve been waiting for all your life.  Show that your love for her is so much bigger than your pride.