I love it when spirit walks me out the door the moment I wake up. I love driving to the ocean predawn, hardly anyone else on the road at that hour . There is something about prayer in the morning, when it is all about gratitude and less about petitioning and negotiation to get out of dire circumstances.  I was up early  to catch the sunrise, and the launch if it was a go.  Yesterday we goofed off for two hours waiting for it to go and did nothing but upset the work flow.  So take two would be today – the Orion rocket was set to launch at 7:05am ET.  It was so rainy and drizzly at the Boardwalk I thought the launch might get scrubbed.   It did not.  Dozens of people were gathered but we didn’t see the launch because it was so cloudy.  We couldn’t even hear it over the sound of the surf. The boardwalk is an interesting community.  In the middle, near Starbucks, you have the sociables.  Farther south, you have all the loners, the fishermen, the photographers.  I like being alone at the shore just before dawn, watching dark turn into day.  It’s fun with friends, too, but predawn, I like that time alone with my thoughts.

The light must hurt when it shines into dark places, that’s why some friends attack when you’ve done nothing but help them. It happens. The flashlight doesn’t judge who it shines upon. Its job is simply to illuminate wherever it’s pointed. Shine on.

If you have to work with or deal with someone you don’t like, you know how to deal with that? Stop reminding yourself what you don’t like about them. Focus on the work before you. Focus on any of a thousand other things available to focus on in the moment, and your ego will get over it soon enough. Ask for guidance to see that situation and that person differently, and to be open to whatever might be learned from them.  When I must be around someone I have resistance to, I’m thankful for the trigger and the reminder that I have emotional work to do. I meditate on the degree of my irked-ness and ask myself the ever deepening question: what is it about this person that makes me give them so much power over me that it changes my mood? Then I listen intently and see what answer unfolds.

It’s not always easy to remember that whatever situation I’m in, I’ve gotten there by being a vibrational match to it. It’s not always easy to see how that can be. The only way I can get out of it is to change my thoughts about what I’m living and what I’m seeing. You, too.

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I locked Benny the Cat in my office while I took out the trash. When I walked back up the driveway, he was sitting at the front door, having climbed out a tear in the screen of my office window. But the kicker was 20 minutes later when he came climbing BACK IN that way. Grrrr. I hope he doesn’t think that’s his own private entrance now. But it IS a way for him to avoid Yinnie the bitchie MiniCow, who lies in wait for him at his favorite entrances, to howl his head off.  Good girl, YinYang, be a good girl.

Don’t let the sound of your own wheels make you crazy

Surprise, Bob Hope had affairs outside the marriage. Humans are not monogamous by nature.  He can be responsible in all other areas of his life yet feel at the mercy of his hormones when it comes to sex. He can be completely stupid in the face of evidence he may lose his entire family and lifestyle over it. Don’t take advantage of that. If he’s a good man and you love him, his relationship with anyone else does not have to affect his relationship with you. The only place it can do that is in your mind and you are the one in charge of how you allow yourself to think about it. It’s not about broken promises and whether you have good reason to be mad and whether you’re justified. We commit too quickly without weighing consequences.  No, it’s about do you love this person and want to continue to be in a relationship with them, knowing this may be an ongoing pattern? That’s all this is about. Everything else is just a thought in your head, and you are the one who can control those.   Continue reading →

This week I learned something. I was going to stay quiet, but have very often heard after the fact “I wish someone had told me.” (However when someone told me, I didn’t listen.) A friend just began dating a woman who I know the past 20 years to be other than what she seems. A mutual friend told me “the news” and joked, “he must have just come into an inheritance.”  That triggered me.  She’s smart, pretty and charismatic, and as long as the dollars are flowing, all is well. She has overlapping relationships and at the first argument over “can you please pay your own bills,” her partners are left devastated, emotionally and financially. I stopped and asked for guidance, to be able to look at it in a way that respected everyone’s path and choices and helped me determine my responsibility, if any, to my friend.  I wasn’t judging his choice, Just wanting it to be an informed choice, like getting a Carfax before a pre-owned car purchase.  The heart wants what the heart wants, and there’s nothing like the shakti rush of new infatuation.   Plus his future experience doesn’t have to be the same as anyone else’s past experience. Continue reading →

Starting in 2016 we’re planning a regular psychic fair in Melbourne.  There will be angel messages, rune readings, crystal readings, astrology, tarot and more. If you’re interested in having a table for vending, email Andrea at horizonsmagazine@gmail.com. If you are interested in doing divination at the fair, email me and we’ll schedule time to have you give me a sample reading. It will be a brief 10 minutes on any topic other than my writing or relationship.  We’ll scout for locations beginning in January. If you have a possible location to suggest, email me.

I’ve been getting lots of sleep lately, a welcome change from the insomnia I often have. The plus side of insomnia is that I always have time for yoga, meditation, creative visualization, working out, projects and cleaning. I used to think I needed to be awake and working up to 18 hours a day in order to get it all done. When I get enough sleep, however, I’m much more productive. Then on those days when I’m napping for 14+ hours a day, I can whip through the work in just a few hours because I’m rested and able to focus and think clearly. It’s been a Starbucks and beach weekend. Yesterday we walked through the art festival in Cocoa Beach then hung out on the sand at the Boardwalk drinking caffe americano decafs with soy milk. I’m loving the feel of moving at a slower pace. At times it feels like I’m on a continual vacation. I still have as much work as I can handle, but when I stop obsessing over “I should work a little more,” I stop overbooking and find I have plenty of time for everything I want to do.   Continue reading →

You ever have one of those days when everything falls into place, conspiring to make you happy? I’m having one of those lifetimes.