Standing outside a building looking in (really looking down into as if from a high window) and Suzie Miller is kind of writhing around on a small bed like she is having a seizure. Reminds me of what it must have looked like to her when she was in the ER with me that last time before they could give me the pain shot. Susan Krauss who was a social activist in Brevard. (Susan was discovered murdered in her apartment on Wednesday, December 28, 1988. Krauss was last seen the previous evening shopping alone at the Albertson’s grocery store in Indian Harbor Beach. Krauss lived by herself at The Hamptons Apartments located at 3040 South Highway A1A, Melbourne Beach. She was at the time of her death was 54 years of age and extremely involved in community activities. Police report reads, “The body of the victim was discovered inside the apartment. The victim’s apartment was located in south Melbourne Beach, which at the time of the murder, was not heavily populated. The investigation into the murder has revealed that an unidentified person entered or was invited into the residence, after which they killed Mrs. Krause. It was determined that the victim died as the result of having been shot.) Anyway, Susan was suddenly with me at the window. She directs my attention to a man on the sidewalk below, wearing a long dark overcoat and standing near a tree and glancing around. It is a regular city street lined with like oak trees maybe the height of a one or 2 story building. We are up maybe 4 stories. He’s not looking at us. I wonder why Susan is at the window with me and wonder why she isn’t telling me info about her assailant instead. She tells me ”it doesn’t matter any more, he was killed a few years after anyway. Forgive them for they know not that they know not.”
end of dream
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I received an email from GB: “I met you at the Master Co workshop in Orlando but I have been reading Horizons since about 1994 or so. I was wondering what type of service I am describing/in need of and thought you might have the answer. I usually subscribe to Wayne Dyer’s ‘wake doesn’t drive the boat’ philosophy, but recently realized (while meditating) that every major ‘trauma’ that seems to have affected my life’s path happened when I was 8. My family went thru very troubled times in many ways that year and we were never the same (I certainly look on it as the source of much pain). Is there a therapy (I am a licensed LMT and Reiki ll person, but that doesn’t seem to be ‘it’) that can take us back to BEFORE the trauma and let us ‘heal’ it? I welcome any ideas/insights you may offer (and as I’m typing this I just knocked over a huge tumbler of fresh ice water I had just poured for myself….hmmmmmmm….) “
I replied:
“I love it when the Universe gives me the cosmic 2×4’s like that, I did the same thing with ugh honey tea into the keyboard last week!
I notice the words you are using. In asking about available therapy, you recognize that a shift in perception, a reframing if you will, of the past, will alleviate a lot of the resistance you feel around that topic and that time period. You can then proceed forward from that reframing, and view your more recent past and present in light of the new understanding. Ah! You have the idea in your mind that you may need to go back to before the trauma in order to heal it. That can be a pretty powerful belief. I know you are open to the idea that it is possible to heal this in ways you right now are not aware of, ways other than going back before it.
You might want to do a little more contemplation yourself and get clearer before seeking outside help. As yourself the big questions so you know what you’re really dealing with; so that when you begin to interview potential therapists, you can tell more readily if they are vibrationally in tune with where you want to be.
Perhaps ask yourself what is:
The situation as you see it now.
How you feel about everyone one involved.
In retrospect, what changed for the worse that did not have to?
What could have come into play in order to prevent the trauma that occurred?
How can the situation be seen if not through the eyes of trauma?
The situation as you saw it then.
How you felt at the time about everyone involved.
What could have happened (or not) to have made a difference in mitigating the resulting trauma?
It’s just a thought. Keep me posted 🙂