Ya gotta laugh.  It really puts it all in perspective when there is something major going on, taking all my attention for days, dealing with paperwork, lack of sleep and people’s emotions. I get home to check email and a few supposed friends feel the need to tell me they saw my ex out and about in my absence.  Who cares?  We’re just friends. Since it’s none of my business (nor yours,) you might question what was your purpose in telling me? To add to my happy thoughts?  To console my grieving heart over losing several loved ones in the last 36 hours, to help me into a better feeling place?  Just wondering.  No biggie.  Little stuff like this pales in comparison to what I’ve just been through.  In this little gossip town, who cares who talks to whom?  I don’t.  Really.  It’s a big world out there, and we’re all entitled to all of it.

Busy day, friends suddenly passing, making travel plans, waiting on phone calls, not enough sleep, trying to catch up on work that I can do without using brainpower.  I’ve  been burning cds, labelling and getting them to the post office.   While waiting today for the calls from relatives, doctors, I needed some mindless busy work so I took the camera outside to take some shots of the pine and oak woods on either side of me, since I do a lot of sketching from photos.  I admired the cozy gardens I’d made, with privacy hedges of loquats, turk’s cap, arbicola, sage, eleagnus, coleus, night blooming jasmine, honeysuckle, spider plants, bamboo. All the trails I’ve cut, the sitting nooks I created.  I love being out in the nature, especially here where it’s so dense you can barely tell there is a neighborhood around me. When I feel stressed, as I have the last few days, being alone in the silence, out in nature is what heals me, it’s what fills me, it’s what fuels me so I have something to give to whoever needs it.  If I’m not filled with healing energy, how I can give anything to anyone else? My life is blessed.  I live in Paradise, I have no complaints whatsoever.

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You are not the one who has thoughts: you are the wide open space in which all thoughts come and go. You are not the sad one or the happy one: you are the unlimited vastness in which joy, bliss, sadness and confusion are deeply allowed to arise and dissolve. You are not the one who is afraid: you are the boundless capacity for fear. You are not the one who lives or the one who dies: you are inseparable from life itself, and therefore cannot experience the loss of life. You are not this one or that one: you are the One, the silent, indefinable ocean of consciousness in which all thoughts, sensations, feelings are eternally held, embraced, and deeply met in unspeakable intimacy. You are the One you have sought for so long.  Jeff Foster (www.lifewithoutacentre.com)