Meditate upon the meaning this card might have for you since it showed up for you at this exact moment.
MEANING:   The 5 of Coins can point to a time when life is feeling less than secure. The important thing to remember is that there is always help available when we need it, from forces both seen and unseen. You may feel alone, but you have the capacity to change that. Reach out.  This card points to a feeling of being left out in the cold, as though everyone else in the world has everything and you are the only one that is suffering. Realize that this is not the case. Do the best you can, with what you have, but remember that the wise thing to do, if one needs help, is to go out and ask for it. The help you need will come. Continue reading →

I just cancelled $450 worth of appointments with particular (and fave!) clients just so I can stay off  a particular topic and get out of a particular vibe.  I love helping friends who help themselves, but it’s not my job to fix anyone who doesn’t want to be fixed.  Wait, it’s not my job to fix anyone, period.  You know what my job is?  My job is fixing me.  So am I losing $450 income?  No.  It just won’t come from those particular clients.  It will instead come from, well, from wherever it is right now.  When I let go of what’s no longer fun, I leave that vibe and step into another. That new vibe will be my new source of income. Everyone wins.

No one knows who or what we’ve talked about unless YOU tell them. You want the matter dropped? Then drop it and it will be, no one the wiser.  Your choice. Reconciliation will halt your probing further into your partner’s history.  Perhaps that was the point.

Learning to forgive and dying again have the same purpose, only to awaken. But just one of them saves significant time and therefore makes sense, when one has come to understand and value nothing more than what Peace is. Godspeed is the only speed there is. Neil McGregor

We practice breathing as a way to calm our feelings and emotions. That way, we can do whatever we are doing in a peaceful and happy way. That’s how we serve, in depth. Thich Nhat Hanh

I just realized what a fast attracter I was in a past situation. I’d forgotten an important part of the timeline until I was reminded of it yesterday. I’d forgotten what questions I’d been asking the Universe, so no wonder I didn’t recognize the answer when it came. In July 2011, I began working with a friend about the man I referenced in The ladies man who presents himself as a guru.  Two months later, I attracted what would end up being with a similar man.  I wondered how I attracted it.  Now out of it a year and a half later, I see that I was vibing in that place because I was advising this particular client on her particular matter from July until September 2011 when I met mine.  I was asking the Universe the question, “How does this happen to these women? How can someone fall for that?” Question answered.  Now I know. I hold no grudges for mine, we all go through integrating our personality and what happened happened. I’m the better for it, I’ve made new friends through it. I don’t think there was premeditated mal intent with mine, but it ended up as it ended up.  The greater point is, had I been conscious and mindful of the questions I’d been asking the Universe, I would have recognized the answer when it appeared. Since I didn’t recognize it, the Universe expanded it for me to show me on a bigger screen.  It took awhile.  I finally got it. I’ll be more mindful in the future of what answers are being played out right in front of me. And I’ll sure as heck remember what I’ve been asking.

Sunday I  went to Sensei Al Rapaport’s  Dharma Talk at the Open Mind Zen Center, where Al is the Spiritual Director. He spoke on the mystical poems of Rumi and how they point to a deep understanding of spiritual practice.  Although I know Al, it was my first time at the center. I arrived a little early and parked in the back. I was glad to see Marsha, Terry and Jenny there, as well as Robin for whom I worked 20 years ago.  We began with a couple of chants then went into a 30 minute silent meditation. I enjoy silent sitting with a group before teaching and discussion begins.  It allows everyone to settle into the intention at hand and let the mindstuff fall away.  Continue reading →