Author Archives: Andrea
I attract karmic backlash in relationships because I have not always acted admirably with men
A friend and I were speaking yesterday about the lessons we attract, who we attract to learn them with and that people show who they really are according to how they perceive us. The lessons I’m learning now are very linked to the me of 20+ years ago. I did not always act admirably with men. I used flirtation to gain favor. I implied sexual promise to keep their attention. When my attention wavered from one man to another, I was quick to move on with little regard of how the other felt. I didn’t give it a thought, I was done. There was always a new man on the horizon. I knew I was near the top of the looks and personality chart, I just didn’t have a soul yet. Continue reading
Frank Maiello: where you have problems, there your ego is found
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Frank T. Maiello, an early on mentor of mine who was a cruical stepping stone to to my awakening in consciousness
“Know that wherever you have problems in your life, there the ego is found. and where the problems have their depth, find there the weight of that ego. What’s less understood for newbies on the razor’s edged path of return, is where would we be without this ego? One must befriend bewilderment; it makes certainty look like our *true* enemy. For, isn’t it out of certainty we find our deepest trap… our prison of treacherous opinion… our cause of social alienation… our death of *true* freedom?”
Frank T. Maiello
The silly girl sh*t has already begun? Begone, you don’t exist for me.
Just a few hours after I shared a post on my Facebook wall, I began receiving messages from gleefully self appointed double agents in a matter a friend and I consider resolved. Please do not send me what he wrote to you in confidence, nor (secondhand/hearsay) details of phone conversations. That’s not the kind of friend you want to be. That’s deceitful. No one deserves that. And Rosie Neal I unfriended after you sent me your sign on info and password because you thought I needed to see something that was none of my business: you profess to be his friend, or mine? I will not be a party to deception. He and I have settled our differences. If you were entrusted with a secret, why are you divulging it? Everyone loves to talk, and those you talk to behind the scenes talk to me. This is not who you want to be. This is not where you want to vibe. Count me out of all of this. It’s none of my business, I do not care, and I simply have other things to do that are a lot more fun. We all try to fill our emptiness with something outside ourselves until we learn we can draw from the wellspring within. It’s only the deepest drinks that satisfy me. Nonsense like this are but feathers on the wind of my life, soon to be puffed away as the nothingness that they are.
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Lost and confused, then the relief of being found and recognized and welcomed
This started out to be a post about how I scored an art set at a friend’s garage sale today but I think getting lost and found was the greater victory. Galpal Shannon Gronich was part of a community garage sale and I wanted to see her. I’d been there before, I knew it was in a popular subdivision, I figured my muscle memory would take me there. Wrong. First, the phone kept ringing and texting in, taking my map off the screen. Second, being a community garage sale, every few blocks had lines of cars stopped or stopping all over the street. Then I kept driving straight when I should have made my first left. Five minutes later I pulled over and text her for the address. I enter it into my cell phone’s GPS and voila, on the screen appears where I am, where I want to go and how to get there. Back on the road, I keep glancing at the map but suddenly I am blocks away from where I thought I was, and going in the wrong direction. WTF? Continue reading
If someone disturbs your peace, the issue comes up to be resolved so you can move to the next level
Let no one disturb your peace. Especially if it’s someone who doesn’t know you anymore, like Domino‘s hateful ex. He knows her appearance right now means he’s attracting everything that is unresolved in his life in order to settle it once and for all and move past it to the next level. She’s lambasting him for his new lifestyle and beliefs. His new happy, purposeful, substance-free lifestyle with friends who support and add to his ideas and his creativity and his spiritual growth. Friends who encourage him to move forward in his dreams, who cheerlead him every step of the way. When you have a good flow of happy people, events and circumstances coming into your life and suddenly feel you’ve hit a wall, you have. On the other side of that wall is the next level of what you’ve been wanting. Right now, everything that is unresolved in your life is coming up in order to be addressed once and for all and move onto the next level. How fast or slow that happens is up to you. I always begin with the Ho’oponopono Hawaiian forgiveness process. Let no one disturb your peace. Resolve old issues as they come up. You don’t vibe in that place anymore. Your happier life awaits you on the other side of resolution. You’ve got new heights to soar to. It’s time.
Normal is an illusion.
I move all the living room furniture around to meet my ever changing needs
This morning while I was Waiting On Daybreak, I began vacuuming and ended up once again moving all the living room furniture around. Now the couch and 2 easy chairs are in the public sitting area. The daybed, recliner and tv remain in the private area behind the drape. The reading table now separates the two areas, with the drape above it. The meditation altar remains on the south wall. I’ll keep you posted.
I always seem to be waiting on daybreak
As my own boss, I keep odd hours. I work early and late. I find myself many mornings waiting for businesses to open so I may begin calls and errands. I usually fill the time doing administrative work and balancing the checkboooks. Like now, I’m waiting on delivery of the February Horizons Magazine, but I’m really waiting for daylight. As soon as the sun comes up, I’m going to move my car out of the garage to prepare for the mailing process. I always seem to be waiting on daybreak. The metaphor is not lost on me. Yes, I do appreciate being in The Now and I make the most of it, but I’ve always got my third eye open seeking a brighter way.