You may feel lonely and isolated as you dwell on your own life, rather than trying to relate wholeheartedly to your friends and family. Limits may come up for you at this time. These restrictions are only as real as your mind makes them. Remember, while you may not have a choice of which thoughts surface in your mind,  you do have a choice of which thoughts to dwell on. As hopeless as any situation feels, it is always only your thoughts you are dealing with, and you have the power to change those. When you find yourself dwelling on a topic that does not bring you pleasure, take a moment to pivot your thoughts to something else. That helps you break the cycle. The thoughts will come less and less, and you’ll move emotionally away from the hamster wheel of negative thought and negative emotion as you move into a different, happier pattern of thought. If your life is not happy now, stop dwelling on your life as it is and instead dwell upon it as you would like it to be.

I did my first quick walk thru at the artfest. I like to go alone first and check out all the paintings, looking for cover art for the mag. A buddy and I will do a walk thru after lunch, more leisurely. We may go later and check out the music as well.  I am the worst, already I wanna stay home alone and work on the computer and play in the garden… no matter how much fun someone is or how much I dig them, I sure dig my alone time in the quiet. I have so many good thoughts waiting in my head to be thought on, awaiting air time… I’m always delighted at last minute cancellations – unexpected alone time! No wonder I attract brats, look at what a brat I am.

Right now, everything that is unresolved in your life is coming up in order to be addressed once and for all and move onto the next level. How fast or slow that happens is up to you.

In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why, of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.”
“Nonsense” said the first. “There is no life after delivery. What kind of life would that be?”

The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths. Maybe we will have other senses that we can’t understand now.”

The first replied, “That is absurd. Walking is impossible. And eating with our mouths? Ridiculous! The umbilical cord supplies nutrition and everything we need. But the umbilical cord is so short. Life after delivery is to be logically excluded.”  Continue reading →

I keep my writing all in one Microsoft Word document, because it’s easy to search when I need to find something in particular I’ve written.  I usually hand copy from the blog into the Word doc every few days, unless it gets really busy.  Today I’m updating all the entries from November 2012 and boy, I see what a ride that was!  I see the ups and downs, I see the fun, I see the wounds, I see the patterns I didn’t see at the time.  Reflection, retrospection can be so illuminating. I see the timeline of where my former mate and I’d had discord and gotten past it as friends, understanding each other.  That is, until a set of new friends convinced him of a lesser understanding, in which case he stopped speaking to me.  I can dig it.  If we’re to be happy, we must go where we feel loved and appreciated.  Their interest is in an area of his life I had no interest in. We are always gravitating to those we are most in harmony with. To avoid being lured with the illusive carrot that never appears, you clean up your past so it doesn’t keep that carrot out of your reach.  In retrospect, everyone will see who everyone is.  This is why I love keeping a blog.  Things I’d completely forgotten about come back to mind and I see situations with an entirely new understanding.  I see my unconsciousness in some writing, I see my mindfulness in others.  I see my journey.  I see what I went through as I was going through it, and where I ended up on the other side of it.  My own journey inspires me since it always clearly reflects my state of mind.  And I can make it good and I can make it bad, depending on my choice of thoughts in the moment.  Depending on where I choose to pivot my thoughts to, to keep me focused in a happy and upbeat frame of mind.  Because only then am I of any good to anyone. And since this life is a journey, I want it to be a fun one and my experience is that it can be.

The Full Moon is a time of completion and celebration, when the Sun and the Moon are opposite. The full moon completes the cycle, representing change and tying up loose ends.  Full Moon is an opportune time for purging rituals to take place.   Here is a link to my Full Moon Ritual For Releasing Things That No Longer Serve Us.  The full moon on Thursday is also the Wesak  full moon.  Wesak is the first full Moon in Taurus.  At the Wesak full moon every year, many celebrate Buddha’s Birthday, receiving the love of Buddha and connecting with all humanity.  This year the Taurus Sun Full Moon occurs in April.  However, due to religious/cultural followings and the gregorian calendar, many will be celebrating Wesak on 25 May 2013.  With a large collective consciousness focusing on this May date, this will create a conscious thought-form. Thus on the 25 May 2013 connect deeply and bring the energy into your full moon ceremonies to honour the full potential of this Wesak in 2013.  In North America, we will not see the lunar eclipse, but you can read about it here.

We say The Great Invocation:  From the point of Light within the Mind of God, Let light stream forth into the minds of men. Let Light descend on Earth.  From the point of Love within the Heart of God. Let love stream forth into the hearts of men. May Christ return to Earth. From the centre where the Will of God is known, Let purpose guide the little wills of men – The purpose which the Masters know and serve. From the centre which we call the race of men, Let the Plan of Love and Light work out, And may it seal the door where evil dwells. Let Light and Love and Power restore the Plan on Earth.

… I had one just like this

This strand is like what I’d braided into the tail of my hair in California in 1996. I arrived back in Florida in time for Christmas Eve service at Unity of Melbourne.  It was packed, standing room only.  My friend Doug Cobb and I stood in the almost back row. When I got home, I found someone had cut my tail off.  In today’s mail, I received it back,  returned anonymously with a note. “You don’t know me. I cut your hair at church one night years ago. I wanted a momento. You write about clear up your past karma so here is your braid. I am sorry.”  Bless them for the courage to return it to me!  I don’t care who you are or why you did it, you are forgiven and I love you.

Earlier today a friend told me they’d be in town this week and I hastily invited them to stay overnight. Almost immediately I began to feel trapped even though it’d be only one day, and I know them and we get along well. I called back an hour later and they were fine with the cancellation. Sometimes I just like being alone when I have the time to myself: I have so many topics awaiting thought time, I like the silence when I can nab it. That’s what’s great about Facebook. I can read friends’ posts and keep up with them, in the silence. I am glad to have understanding friends. Even if I commit to something, as soon as it begins to feel not right, I cut the cord so I don’t leave the other party hanging.  That’s how friends stay friends for a lifetime.