My mom and I were close, speaking every day, never arguing, she was my best friend. I always thought I’d freak when she passed, which she did suddenly on April 8, 1996.  I didn’t freak.  I didn’t grieve.  I felt there was no separation.  I still don’t feel she’s missing from my life. I’ve ever been a sentimental person. I’ve never been family oriented. In the 80′s, I co-raised a stepdaughter from ages 10-13.  I love my family, but family life is not for me.  Mom was the one who kept in touch with everyone. It’s only 17 years later I think I might have liked a copy of her address book.  I figure whoever is meant to find me will find me, like cousin Laurie who found me on Facebook. Laurie and I are much alike and she’s fun to connect with. Mom would be laughing with us today. Happy Mother’s Day to the one who inspired me that giving others hope for a brighter future makes it come to pass for all of us so much quicker. I love you, Mommy! Have  good day floating on your cloud playing a harp or rocking in your chair on your porch with your cat Lady in your lap, whatever it is you’re doing Up There or Over There. I can’t say you’re missed because I know you’ve never left.

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This week I’ve given over the master suite to a yogi friend, so he has his own garden entrance and bath.  He’s fasting and on silent retreat. It’s nice to have someone to meditate and do yoga with twice a day. It reminds me of living in functional silence in the ashram years ago, sharing space yet no voices. That’s a familiar and comfortable place for me. Since he’s fasting, he can hole himself up and do his work without the distraction of meal preparation and eating. I’m staying out of the east garden while he’s here, so he has complete privacy.  Since 2001, I’ve stored some boxes for him, so he removed those and organized the shed for me. There’s workshop space now! I’ve been spending time on the back porch, sketching the cardinals building the new nest not seven feet away from me as I sit in the rocker with my sketchpad. The nest so far is mostly moss and thin twigs, some strands of my hair, they made a lot of progress on it today.  Tonight we got some good rain on the back porch roof, I love to hear that, and the wind was sounding the chimes in the courtyard… I love the sounds of nature. I like the feeling of sharing space for a short time with someone of like mind, of communion with a friend without having to engage in nonstop conversation. I like the feeling of someone working on their own project in another room and me working on mine, and us not feeling the need to update each other with everything we’re doing or get into a bunch of idle talk.  The Universe is showing me new things to like and appreciate. May it ever be so.

A yogi pal is visiting and we’ve been gardening. I went outside to do some morning watering, and ended up working on my bamboo and grapevine privacy wall.  Every length of grapevine I cut was the perfect length, and every bamboo bone I chose was the perfect height. I love creating natural walls, because I like a change of scenery.  As the older palmetto fronds and bird of paradise leaves begin to decompose, I add newly cut  ones.  One of my favorite things to do here at home is to cut new trails in my little patches of woods, and re-route the grapevine to grow where I want shade or privacy each season.  Then you have to be inside the yard to see the special little vignettes here and there, little meditative spots.  We have a lot of walkers-by here, and I prefer my yard look as nondescript and uninviting as possible.  But inside, it’s Paradise! I’ve been watering a lot, so everything is blooming and lush. I decided against a vegetable garden, since the only sunny spot in the yard is a patch in the back that I neglect, walking through it only to water the loquat, turk’s cap and arbicola in the northwest yard. My big turtle likes the crabgrass there in the sunny spot, preferring it to the lush grass in the shade. The wild bunny likes the lush grass.

To be great, you have to be willing to be mocked, hated and misunderstood. Stay Strong. Small minds can’t comprehend big spirits.  Spirit Science and Metaphysics

I myself consider it an initiation, an honor and a blessing when it happens.  Some say we undergo a crucifixion in every lifetime.  Our response to it balances karmic debt and determines how long we keep ourselves on the cross.  It’s the same as not coming to the altar to pray, expecting to receive fully, if we’ve not first forgiven everyone and everything.  The initiation is in being mocked, hated and misunderstood.  We run the gauntlet of the initiation by how we respond and react. The honor and blessing of it is being given an opportunity to resolve the past, do things differently and make a clean start.

Excerpt of letter written 11-30-11, doing a friend’s astrology transit for 2012:  Our transits reflect the journey we are taking.  “Remember,” I said, ” we make or break anything in our lives by our attention and focus to it, astrology notwithstanding.  While you and I have houses 12 (the unconscious) and 1 (the personality) in common in our charts, I see that our astrological “lessons” fall into houses 6 and 7, the same for me and my friend ZR.  I mention him because the lessons you and I will have together should be a higher octave of what he and I went through on our journey. The higher octave remedies the karma of the lower.    ZR is smart as a whip, sarcastic, sardonic, we’ve never discussed spirituality.  He is an attorney and so our entire time together was filled with legal stuff, albeit of a different sort.  ZR’s fatal flaw was he was very selfish and controlling.  He defined his manhood by how much sex he could have with every new woman he met, irrespective of their feelings, leaving much confusion and heartbreak in his path.  Out of sight, out of mind, next.  I just mention that because if we have a solid house 6 (work/service) relationship, then overpouring into the 7th house (relationship/partnership) will cause conflict.

UPDATE: It did

UPDATE: Jeremy reports he did send them out. That doesn’t explain why the emails were shown as coming from the names of several people who did not send them out, though. At least he knows now I did not get him kicked off FB. I got 4 emails in a row today, one from him and 3  from different Facebook names, and the time stamp made me curious. They did not send them.  This might be his FB problem.  Below is what I got with an attachment I did not open.  Since then, more have told me they’ve been told emails are going out in their name and asking how to report it.  This is how.

Subject: Re: New Website ~ AWESOME NEW VIDEO!!
Date: 5/9/2013 4:44:35 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time From: EPF@facebook.com   Subject: Re: New Website ~ AWESOME NEW VIDEO!!
Date: 5/9/2013 4:45:49 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time From: AW@facebook.com   Subject: Re: New Website ~ AWESOME NEW VIDEO!!
Date: 5/9/2013 4:46:44 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time From: 1691934558@facebook.com

They did not send these out, they should not be going out in someone else’s name.

6:21 pm Andrea: AW, hi, I got an email from AW’sname@facebook.com with Subject: Re: New Website ~ AWESOME NEW VIDEO!!

Did you sent it? I’ve gotten a few of them just now all at one time. If you did NOT send it, that might be why he got kicked off FB but it looks like a robot sent them out, all at the same time. I mean if you did that’s fine but if not, someone needs to tell him he’s got a robot spamming his email.

6:25pm FB Friend AW: Oh, how weird, Andrea… No, I actually received an “Auto-generated message” with that subject… sent to me, including others as well.. and attempted to ‘remove myself from the conversation’… ??? Tis very weird!

6:26pm Andrea: this might be part of his FB problem hmmm

6:27pm FB Friend AW: I’ve no idea… I have no contact with him… Just noticed, I have about 8 copies of the same message… This is what one of the messages says:
“Content-Type: text/plain; charset=UTF-8 This message was created automatically by Facebook. A message that you sent to davidslatton@milfordbaptistgreer.org could not be delivered. We’re working hard to get this problem fixed. Sorry for the inconvenience.”

How To Report A Facebook Violation  If something went out in your name, report it and tell all parties to report it also. I got the notices by email, it looks like those who were not blocked got a chat conversation. Report both the email and the chat conversation.

A mark of one’s character is how they leave past relationships.    Are they still friends with past partners, family and employers? Do they have job references? Do they have a good relationship with the other parent of their child, whether they are together or not? Never for a moment stay with someone you have outgrown, but honor them enough to have the talk right away. Don’t talk to everyone but them. Blessed are the ones with the integrity to honestly speak their heart and mind so everyone leaves as friends.  I’m friends with all of mine (possibly minus 1? too soon to take score).  Well, I’m friends with all the ones who lived, let’s say that.  Some have no role model for ending a relationship honorably. They don’t know what it looks like, so it’s simply “cause a fight and disconnect from anyone who’s seen behind the curtain, demystifying the persona.” As an adult, my “Dear John” is “Hey, I love you pal but I don’t wanna do the boy/girl thing any more, so if we can morph into buddies, I’d be cool with that.”  No lies, no hurt feelings, that’s always the reason.  The truth will set you free.  When I began to feel trapped (difficult to phathom because these were men I deeply loved and enjoyed being with),  I would want to be alone again, to decompress from the time we spent together.  This is over a span of 40 years I’m talking.  I live in a quiet, peaceful and serene setting. I’m glad for the shakeup and wakeup of 2012 because without the contrast I wouldn’t so fall in love with my solitary life again, as I have now, and embrace my own space, my own silence with such a silly grin. Everything old is new again.  Thank you, vibrational matching.

Here are my tips for success and a happy life, both of which I have:

1.  Be honest.
2.  Give something of value.
3.  Let people know they matter.
4.  Clear up the past.
5.  Pray.
6.  Be grateful.
7.  Love no matter what, no matter who.

Yes, I have wild dreams but I love them: Last night was a night of lots of vivid dreams. One I remember most is I was in an area of racial unrest and we, many peoples of different colors, entered this huge nondenominational church, all of us holding hands in many rows. We closed our eyes to pray for peace, this voice from outside the dream came into my head and told me to let the love and light in. So I did what I usually do in meditations to open up the energy and let it flow. Light started flooding into the entire building until there was nothing but pure white light everywhere and I had somehow floated upwards. It was a beautiful feeling. This is what we are supposed to be doing — bringing light and love into this world while we’re here, as best as we can. We have our dark moments and the paradox is without darkness, there is no light. So, in our struggles, we’re making our light stronger and brighter in the face of this darkness that envelopes us at times. Raymond Hines, Owner/Publisher at GatorCountry.com – The Insider Authority on Gator Sports!

Ok Caryn E Bishop, you began an avalanche. I saw your invite to connect on Linked-In and clicked on it and see I had 252 invitations waiting from last year.  I don’t know my way around Linked In, so I just selected all and accepted everyone. I figured I’d sort them out later, not realizing I’d get an email from every one of them.  You guys will hafta tell me how and why to use Linked-In. I am such a non-professional biz person. My tips to success are be honest, give something of value, let people know they matter, clear up the past, pray, be grateful and love no matter what, no matter who.