Cast of NYC Prep

I watched another episode of the Bravo TV reality show NYC Prep, where the cameras follow an unlikely mix of public school and private school kids in New York City.  I wrote about the first episode in Teen Angst in NYC Prep; Getting Caught In The Drama.  This was the 6th Episode Fashion Week, Guests of Guests.  I missed many episodes because I don’t keep track of when shows are on. PC and Jessie see themselves as real fashionistas so, of course, they are front row at the shows at NY Fashion Week. I thought that in itself was pretty funny, what would high school kids be doing in the front row anyway, except for a parental favor, combined with Bravo TV camera coverage.  Wait, why should I care? Anyway, in this episode Jessie the drama queen is once again whining and pouting because PC is more interested in the fillies who do not act like bitter 40 year old shrews at age 17.  She invites him to the show of the designer she has just secured an intern position with, then is pissed when he brings 2 metro male friends, Trey, a stylist and Zach, a photographer, as well as Devorah Rose of Social Life Magazine along with him.  Jessie no likie when PC hangs with anyone but her.  Especially these ancient 20 somethings… and the camera crew without her… Wait, it gets better.

Devorah – who is, of course, beautiful and shapely – tells PC there will be so many parties all night and he should come, but he has a test and needs to study, so Jessie goes all postal on him.  Devorah says, “Let’s go, I have a car waiting,” and they’re off, leaving Jessie to sit alone and forlorn, curses, foiled again.  Jessie lies to her friends, saying that PC and his 30 year old friends came in and caused a ruckus that everyone noticed and put her job in jeopardy.  She is tired of saving PC’s ass.  Her friends tell her to back away from him but, of course she can’t do that because then she’d have to get a life.

I look at this girl and wonder what she will be like in 10 years if this is how hateful and spiteful and conniving she is right now.  She makes a big to do about working on behalf of Operation Smile yet blocks Camille’s involvement and acts like it’s all about “Do you want me to talk to your school?  Do you want me to model?” She’s snotty, she’s catty, just wait until she hits 18 and 21 and gets grandpa’s money – what will be unleashed then?  Or it could be that she gets some serious life lessons between now and then and becomes a real force for good and compassionate works.  She’s got it in her.  It’s too soon to tell.  Karma can be a bitch.  The sooner you start clearing it up, the better.

We all know people who are catty and competitive and unless they are around their own kind, they stick out like a sore thumb.  They live in their own little world of jealousy, conniving and one upmanship.  But it’s not really that,  it’s more like when the kitten hisses and spits, it’s afraid, it’s in unknown territory and feels threatened by a big something and feels unprotected, so it lashes out, in the most basic of ways, because that is all it knows.

When they begin to grow out of that stage and look back on their earlier life, they are horrified at the bruised and battered souls they left in their wake.  A lot of people come to this stage through the 12 step programs, where they have you reflect on your past and make amends.  But not everyone goes into recovery.  Sometimes you just have to have had enough of living that kind of life and want to back away from it.  Or just take a break to gain perspective.

Why do I watch these shows and what do they have to do with me?  In the 90’s, I took about a 10 year break from watching tv.  When I began watching again, I watched with a clearer eye.  Not much holds my attention for long, so I know that whatever I’m drawn to watch will tell me something about me, something I can benefit by knowing.

My own recent backing away has been from the Facebook notifications.  I changed my settings so that I do not get an email each time someone comments on a post I made on Facebook. I found I was spending too much time on Facebook because I’d open all the notifications and click the link and go peek at what someone had commented.

When I could instead just wait until I signed onto Facebook and check my Wall then. I saved three hours today by doing just that. That’s kind of like breaking another habit before it becomes an addiction.  I won’t say I’ll keep them turned off, but for now I am backing away so I can use each spare moment on the priorities I’ve got my eye on right now.

I’d find myself feeling a sense of urgency in clearing the notifications from my email in box so I could get to work, yet I didn’t want to miss anything if someone wanted my attention.  Again that sense of urgency, wantng to be available if someone really needed me. Needed me more than the 303 emails already waiting for me. What an ego, huh? I just recently realized that sense of urgency was just a stress anxiety my ego brings on when I begin to lose sense of Who I Really Am, where I am really headed and what is really important.

There’s always time for Facebook because it’s fun and connects me with friends and, frankly, brings me a lot of business. And while I agree we’ve got all the time in the world, I also agree we don’t have a moment to lose.

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