Tuesday February 3, 2008  The last many years I’ve gotten used to working behind the scenes with authors and publicists and most of our contact is via email.  Because the majority of the magazine layout process takes place months in advance, I’ve learned to ask months in advance for anything I need from them: author images, book jackets, excerpts.  So as my brother is doing a monster overhaul on a couple of projects, I’ve inadvertently put him under pressure.

We do a lot of email back and forth, sometimes dozens a day.  he sends me screen shots of features of new programs and asks me to choose style and design preferences.  Sometimes it takes me a week or more to be able to answer a technical email he has sent me.  Thus I am answering it a week or more later, after he has moved on to other projects.  I never think about that.  I just figure he’ll put it in line to do when he gets the time next.  But no, not my brother!

As much as I complain about the sensitive personality of the Cancer male, those I have known born under the sign of the crab tend to really care about the well being of others and want to add to it.   It’s in their nature.  Two of my favorite former mates were Cancer males and, being an Aries x5 who loves freedom and independence, I felt smothered by both of them.  In all fairness, I feel smothered easily – but – my loss in both cases.

So, now I realize what I have done, now that I have had an easier few days to gather thoughts and pay more attention to details on our personal projects.  And I apologize to Jerry for not being mindful enough to recognize what I was doing and how it might be affecting him.  Affecting his own ability to plan and take time off to do his own projects, rather than working on our joint projects.

Here I write and complain about how I have no time for myself, and here I am stealing away all his free time and not giving it a second thought.  And here all along I thought HE was the one who was the brat.

Sorry, boo boo.