Andrea de Michaelis, Publisher
Hello and welcome to the August 2012 edition of Horizons Magazine. When do you help others and when do you help yourself? Did you ever think that the ones who go around giving the most advice to others would be better served by using that time to instead work on themselves? Thats the dilemma, though. When we are going through our own personal growth process, our own transformation, ascension, dark night of the soul, illumination, thats when we begin to seriously seek answers. While were still the unformed chunk of coal, we dont yet understand that the insights that come to us are meant for us not for everyone around us. Most often, the human mind/ego that likes to think itself separate and apart from others is in charge. To those newly upon the Path, the mind makes you think that you and you alone are going through this, that you and you alone are receiving information and guidance from a higher source, and that you and you alone are the messenger sent to save everyone around you, maybe the world.
When I first began to get the huge rush of serious guidance from within, I filled notebooks with volumes that I just knew was meant for everyone. I just have to get this information out there! I immediately began teaching and counseling. While I know many people benefited from what I had to say, the point is my mind had rushed me into sharing it prematurely; before Id fully understood it myself. Had I taken that time to instead more deeply contemplate what I was learning, the unfolding would have been much smoother and more helpful to everyone.
It was easy while I was teaching and counseling. Id spent all my time thinking of what my students needed to hear from me. With all my attention outside myself, I had no time to properly absorb the teachings I was so quick to give out. Thats what the mind does, it keeps us thinking, keeps us talking, keeps us looking for someone to interact with. As we begin to spiritually awaken and evolve in consciousness, its helpful to have someone whos been there and done that to make suggestions as to what may be most helpful in our journey. What can save them time, unnecessary emotional pain and karmic backlash.
Too often its the blind leading the blind, and we get entangled in the illusions of the astral world. We feel a spiritual longing, so we begin to attend classes and co-counsel with each other. Or we begin writing our book and spend more hours studying and editing and in endless discussion groups than we do contemplating the guidance that comes from within. We feel compelled to constantly edit and refine the words of what weve written, but too often it is the critical mind that never wants to be done with doing, because then its no longer in charge.
I was blessed decades ago to find a friend in Frank Maiello, a brother a little higher upon the Path than I, who helped mentor me as I learned. He saved me many stumbles and falls upon the way. Twenty years later a friend would give me high praise, How blessed I was to find you. Who so effortlessly showed me who I was and made me see through the lies Id been told and began to believe myself. Thank you.
Paying attention to what comes in and out of my body is a part of my spiritual practice. Its about mind, spirit AND body. I just threw out 4 cans of curry. Taking a look in my food pantry, I recognize my habit to over buy. In the case of canned goods, often by the time I think about using them, they are years past the expiration date. Today I realize that the state of my pantry reflects the state of my digestive system last week: a steady accumulation of too much food, so much theres no room for it all. Last week I got a good reminder of what happens when I do that. I shared on Facebook, I make poor food choices and I pay the price, its not like I dont know. And a few days later: Ugh my lower tummy feels blocked the last 36 hours. No food since Thursday, just clear liquids. No doubt it is a metaphor for me holding on to ideas or whatever that are better released. In the meantime, I went to the pharmacy and was advised to take Milk of Magnesia. Yikes, I never took something like that, I dont like meds, wish me luck. I know its a result of my eating a little too heavily the last couple of months, and its caught up wit me. I wont do that again anytime soon.
A nurse friend suggested a mix of 30ml of Milk of Magnesia and 120ml prune juice, warmed in the microwave. This friend was my hero! Apparently it was just a simple case of constipation, but it seemed giant to me who is used to all parts working well. I read on webmd.com that youre not
constipated unless it's been three days. Three days? Holy cats, I thought eliminating an hour after every meal was the norm. Granted my typical diet is fresh greens and watery soups, with chicken, fish and potatoes a few times a week. Guess I'm wimpier than I thought if this made me think something might be seriously off. One friend tells me she regularly spends 40 minutes in the bathroom several times a week and is constipated often. She drinks a liter of soda a day and eats a heavily fried meat and bread diet, very few greens, is a smoker and drinks coffee every day. Ouch. There but for the grace of God go I.