Andrea de Michaelis, Publisher
March, Spring, new beginnings. And I'm ready for it. Last month, for the first time in years, I made a medical appointment for anxiety. I attribute the anxiety to a few recent incidents where I was concerned with dear friends in health crises, and I let my mind run away with worry. My wake up call was one Sunday when a close friend began having classic heart attack symptoms and we called 911. The paramedics arrived just in time they said and he was transported to the emergency room. I followed and hung with him while they did all the poking and prodding and gave him a ride home many hours later. Except for the almost dying part, it was a fun adventure once he was stabilized and medicated and we were just waiting for him to be released. It was a powerfully bonding adventure to share, and an initiation of sorts. There are no accidents when people come together and mix energy and mix karma with each other.
I love it when friends are aware of what's happening on a conscious and transcendant level and we can discuss what we're going through. I spent much time afterward contemplating my part in the co-creation of the day's events. I did much soul searching and also did Dr. Lew's Ho'oponopono Hawaiian Healing Process (I'm sorry, I ask your forgiveness, I forgive you, I love you, thank you) since the premise is: if you are aware of something happening to anyone, you have a part in the creation of it simply by virtue of your awareness of it. It is my experience that is true. I have a handful of friends and family with recent health events and I did the process on each of them. Then I did it on myself since I've allowed myself to let it all get to me.
I asked a friend for a referral to a medical office and got an appointment for 3 hours later. Synchronicity: it is an office where a pal works! I saw Lynn Meyer and told her I usually manage stress well, and don't have much of it -- that I do daily meditation and yoga and I work out several times a week at the gym and at home. I brought in my list of the daily vitamin and mineral supplements I take. I also brought my most recent blood test results, so she knew what was going on inside my body. I told her I'm a lightweight with drugs and need to be coherent and clear minded.
She prescribed .25 xanax (alprazolam) and said take one twice a day for anxiety and 2-3 at night to sleep. She ordered another set of labs, so I went right from her office to do that. It was noon the next day before I was able to pick up the prescription and take a dose and it did calm the anxiety. Within 30 minutes, I felt less of an urgency to return all the calls today, answer all the emails today. But 10 hours later I noticed my spidey sense also seemed to be still asleep. Not good for the occupation! I'm aware, however, that I was under acute distress and it would pass soon enough.
WHAT I USUALLY USE WHEN I'M STRESSED